New Year's Eve

It's almost 2011. Feeling a bit nervous and also excited thinking of the great things the new year have to offer.

Happy New Year Everyone. I guess this is my last post for 2010. Again, it's been a full year, with so much things that had happen. And gratefulness is all i feel. :-)

Tanggayon do muli...

...hilo negara kedua ku..haha

1) Tuhau
2) Bambangan
3) Lado Topurak
4) Kuih Cincin

Hehe....haro poh kantoh suai nga intangan poh lah..any suggestion? haha

A few days left at home.

I guess we are not going back to Ranau this year. I feel slightly disappointed but well, we can always go back next year.

Sist and two of her youngest kids are going back to Kota Marudu soon. Lisa and Ian will continue to study in Stella Maris Primary School.

Plan to do a small party at home tomorrow. With balloons and party hats. Maybe somewhere in the morning or evening, I should bring them out, all of us to somewhere I still need to think of. Hehe.

Apa la..

Adei..bagus2 sy ada mood mo blogging td..trus malas sda skg..ada seja yg bikin panas. I should get away from virtual world/ social network until new year lah ni to mantain a good vibe.

But I have to schedule a few posts so that everything ends at 9 every year. But then..I don't want it to be like ntah apa2 seja punya post..Hmm..apa la ni mo tulis.

Post from home.

A few more days left at home. And a few more days to go for a new year.

Hmm.

Yeeehaaa!

Off to Sabah. Bye Everyone! ho ho ho

Please be better

I'm so glad that I'm feeling much better. I have been feeling like that one time I was almost hospitalize due to dehydration all evening. I felt so weak I can hardly lift myself up from the bed. My body must have been fighting off the viruses so hard that even when I was resting, I still felt ridiculously tired.

Now still got a mild headache but I don't have a fever anymore. Pliz pliz be better by tomorrow. I wanna go home d.

How To Cure Flu

Tsk...tsk...I just want to get it over with. I don't want to be sick during holiday...especially the first few days.

So I google this and now feeling like a bloating panda due to non-stop drinking of hot fluids.

1) Drink a lot of hot fluids (teas, soups, etc.) to keep you hydrated, warm and to dilute toxins. This also helps your immune system to fight and prevent the influenza virus, drinking herbal tea should help to relieve a sore throat

2) Drink lots of juices (orange juices, multivitamin juices, etc.) vitamins in juices will help your immune system, therefore cure the illness faster.

3) Stay warm. Sweating helps to get rid of toxins and to recover your body faster.

4) Keep your feet warm (put on some pleasant socks) warm feet helps blood circulation.

5) Have a balanced diet. Eat lots of vegetables and fruits, this is one of the most important actions you can take to boost your immune system.

6) Eat or chew few pieces of raw garlic, It helps your blocked nose and sore throat. Some experts say that garlic is also very good for boosting your immune system, therefore helping to cure and prevent the flu.

7) Rest. Your body uses a lot of energy to fight the virus, being tired will delay the healing process.

Mainan...mainan...

Done buying presents for the kids. Going to wrap it tomorrow.

Lego, Barbie and collection of trucks.

And....I'm ready to go! haha..awal bah.

Holiday Mood Is In The Air

I think I found a destination to bring my mom for her first time out-of-country travel for next year. If all go well, I hope I can make it as a surprise birthday gift or something. :) I thought about it while thinking of my own travel plan (Wel, pigi Vietnam ka tu kau bilang next year?). I'm going to take her to apply for a passport once I'm back at home in a few more days. That's one step done and closer to really doing it.

I foresee that 2011 will be a very busy year. With all the outdoor activities me and the guys have been planning...futsal, hiking, badminton, fishing, drinking (hehe) and to join all the run or walk or maybe even cycling (mo tunggu si Jew betul2 pi pasang badan tu tulang basikal dia di rumah dlu) that Penang has to offer next year. Or maybe Singapore. Or KL. We'll see about that.

And a busy weeks ahead up until new year. Hmmm.

Life is Good. And not a commercial of LG.

2 days to go.

Migraine is gone. Task no.3 is done and the 1st and 2nd task will be done tomorrow. Then Friday is going to be just making sure everything is pack and done...and come Saturday, I'm off to Sabah! Woohooo!

Oh no.

I am having a mild migraine since Sunday night. It may be due to hormonal reason that happen to girls each month or something else but whatever it is, I want it to disappear as I need to get a few things ready before going back this coming Saturday.

1) Get a dress for Rayner's wedding. Ntah brapa kali mau survey baru mau puas hati..ish ish ish.
2) Buy presents for the kids at home. Apparently they are coming back to KK earlier than me. Surely, they'll be waiting for the presents.
3) Wash the traveling bag and pile of clothes before Friday. At least.

Hmm...that's just three things actually kan. 1 item 1 day, should be done by Friday. I have to force myself lah ni. Siapa suruh last minute.

Season of Everything

I  have been playing too much Farm Ville on Facebook lately. Not that I'm bored with nothing to do but I guess it's the season of everything. Christmas season, farming season...you name it.

It's only a week now before going back to Sabah to be with my family and friends. I'm very much looking forward to it. Even though as usual I wish I have more money for everything.

A lot of things have happened this year. I quit my previous job last August and now working in XXX company. So far, I have been quite happy working with the new company although of course there's a few ups and down when you are still a new hire. Quite differently now, I don't really mind working extra late and I have not yet have the dreaded feeling of waking up to work as what I have sometimes felt in my previous company. I guess, it was really a time to change for me. Nothing is ever routine now. Everything is new. There's so  much to catch up and to learn fast. The expectation is high and sometimes I feel stupid. But I'm going to enjoy it as long as I can. Before the curve turn to flat.

And...I'm single again. It was the right thing to do and I'm not going to go into much detail on that.

I still have my own way of seeing life and let me tell you this. Right and wrong is just a matter of opinion. More than often, I'm always optimistic. And I may seems naive at times, but that's my choice. I choose to live like that. There are times when I want to be careful and there are times when I can just accept-no-problem if I'm being cheated into, robbed or tricked. I may not have a strong stance over something that seems a small matter to me or just those things that I don't feel strongly about but for other things that does matter, there's really nothing you can do or say to make me change my mind.

I wrote about doing just two things this year at the start of the year and I'm glad I did it. I definitely want to repeat that resolution and also add those that I already plan in my head.

The year have not even finish yet, but I already have plans for the next coming one. Now that everything seems to go well and to the right direction, all I can think of for next year is to make everything better than it is now. There's a few things I had in mind. And you bet I'll do it all.

For these next few weeks, I just have to give my energy, attention and commitment to the family back at home. Excited much?

Family Trip This Year

A thought about family trip came across my mind just now while surfing through the internet and I was thinking, me and my family never actually done this as an annual thingy. But then, all of a sudden I thought about those unplanned and spontaneous outing we did before and actually yes, we did have it every once in a while.

It maybe a small trip like going to the Poring Hot Spring just for the kids to swim or 'berendam' around or this one time when we went to the Lok Kawi Wildlife Park to amuse the kids because they all been taught to love animals, but when I think about it, yeah...it's where me, sist, mom and all the kids got together and I'm happy just thinking about it now.

Maybe this year I should plan about something nicer for all of us. It doesn't have to be fancy and everything as long as the happiness is there. I wonder where we should go. Any suggestion? :)

24K Gold

I bought a set of eye mask supposedly filled with 24K active gold to beautify and invigorate (yeah~) the skin on the eye zone from a boutique a few months ago..when the lady explained on how to apply it, I remember I was nodding here and there with understanding.

I finally get myself to use it a minute ago..confirm lah lupa! and..the writing which looks to me like a direction of use, is in Chinese.

Harap-harap mata xbertukar jadi kuning keemasan esok. lol

I'm not really feeling enthusiastic about work today. My nose is stuffy and I have to let go a dry cough and inhale deeply to take a breath of air. I felt unreasonably tired and my eyes are heavy as if asking me to take a rest and have a good sleep. Uhuk..uhuk..ehemm..ehemm..

Of Many Things...

Sist and her kids have gone back to her husband's hometown. Mom is alone again at home. I called her up and we had a really nice talk.

We talked about many things. Baby Ryan is growing up fast and getting so funny and bikin gerigitan. He gets so cheeky at trying not to get caught hiding the paper plane he plan to throw at the neighbour's cat. Or gets teary eyed and using his baby-power of being adorable and run quickly to hug you as some kind of a sorry act just before you are about to do some spanking. Bless him. Ian is his usual self, not really care much about the fuss and everything except for a must have Milo on every trip to the grocery store and the latest i'm-not-quite-sure-what-the-name-was candy kids are apparently gets so crazy nowadays.

Nanak is also still at her usual rant of "Mama, kau sayang aku?" or "Oh, kau sayang baby sama Ian seja skg kan. Aku nda mau tolong kau suda lah." everytime she's getting in a quarrel with anyone in the house. Typical Nanak. Adi Kecil is getting more cunning each day. Being good to you if she want to tag along when you are going out and ignore you right away once she's safely home with all the goodies she manage to put her hands on.

And it was Christmas mood. Mom was asking whether to change the green christmas tree to a white one this year, on plans for a type of dishes during family gathering and what I should get for the kids for christmas presents and so on. Looking forward to being back home now. :)  

I told Mom about the singing performance in the company and I was pleasantly suprised that she actually remember one of the song.

"Saya nyanyi tu lagu yang saya ikut pertandingan di Central dulu tu." 
"I Turn To You kah?" She said.

It was like 5 years ago or something. She has always been so supportive of me in singing.

Then I'm not quite sure how we came to the matter of marriage and kids and when I gently told her that I may not be getting married in near future, or maybe ever, she was still quite a sport about it like how she did all this while. I guess she always know that I have my own way of looking at things in life and she respected that. What suprised me the most was when I told her that if I never get to meet someone who likes me enough to marry me, then I may want to consider just having a baby and be a single mother, we were actually discussing about how to make it happen! Haha...but still as a mother, I know she would like it for me to settle down with a nice guy and have a good marriage but at the same time, still open with anything that I may decide. Love her so much. :)

When we get to the point of talking about the recent accident, I think that we were both trying to hold our emotion and trying not to cry on the phone. The thought of Nanak getting hurt and scared like that really makes me and Mom emotional and very protective. It's just obvious even among the family member that we both really thought of Nanak as our own daughter and that we love her so much.

I was trying to hold my tears when Mom recall the story of the accident and also the kindness of the guy and his girlfriend who help them all throughout the entire process of taking them to the hospital, waiting up in the hospital together, even asking Mom to just rest and took charge of consulting with the doctors and sending them home. When Mom was at loss for words feeling so touch by their kindness, they actually went and hug Mom just to say that everything is allright and checking up on Nanak after a few days just to see how she's doing. We were just feeling so lucky and grateful to meet someone like them. I told Mom that we should invite them to our family gathering this year. I really want to meet these two lovely souls in person.

And...after almost two hours talking on the phone, nasib baik dua-dua mau p kancing kalau nda tia pandai putus-putus bercerita. Haha

Everywhere

It went well on both days. I am so happy with all the feedback so far. Everyone has enjoy the performance. 

Hee hee...

Because You Love Me

That was the song.

After quite some time...I got a chance to sing for an event again. I was quite nervous and I think it shows.

It was a bit embarassing.

I'm singing again tomorrow, for the second day of the event and I hope I'm done with the nervousness by then. I just prepared for one song each day but maybe I have to sing two songs tomorrow. I have pick another quite an easy song and I'm hoping I can deliver it well.

I really love singing and the best part out of it is when I know that people enjoyed it. I always have this idea of just performing and singing but I don't have to be like a commercial artist or something. Just singing. And making people happy.

I'm really grateful everytime I'm given a chance to sing a song, entertaining people despite feeling anxious once in a while. I'm quite excited for tomorrow and really really want to do the best I can. Wish me luck!

Last Night...

When it ended, I could feel my chest hurting and I was short of breath. Everything I felt before I opened my eyes, I could still feel every sensation of it, physically and emotionally. I almost cried trying to ease it away, assuring myself that it was just a dream. And the first thing I did instinctively once I woke up was trying to get away.

I guess what happen was, I was dreaming about something that I know have been bothering me but I never really talk about it and I just let it rest deep inside my subconscious mind. I know it may probably start sounding like something you get from the movie Inception but we all knows that some part of that movie is true.

And I still couldn't shake everything away, every flash of scene, every faces seen and every felt emotion. I had this kind of dream before. And what really hurt about it was, it may not even happen yet but it will and I'll know for sure a few days later. Like a call from a friend. Or a confession. The gut feeling you have just right after waking up.

10Km Run..

...for Penang Bridge International Marathon 2010.

I was able to finish within 1 hour 30 minutes and got my finisher medal.

Yay!

Update: Official time is 1hr 15min. If I really train starting from now, I can think of joining the 21Km next year. The only thing is...bikin penat ba tu lama betul mo lari...kin malas betul. Aishhhh... :-D

Accident

Mom called at 3.00am today. She couldn't sleep. And after that it was hard for me to sleep either.

They had an accident at around 11pm last night. She and my niece, Lisa. I could feel my heart skipped a beat when I heard that. I mean this is going to be the second time Lisa is involved in a car accident. And looks like both, she had the worst. When it happened last year, she was stuck beneath the car tyre. This time, she was thrown out from the car. I have to literally close my eyes to shake away the feeling of panic and tried listening to my mom talking on the phone. I couldn't thank God enough that mom and Lisa are alright. Mom was feeling chest pain due to the impact and Lisa got cuts and bruises but otherwise fine.

They were on their way to the airport to fetch my cousin and my uncle was driving. They stopped at the red traffic light but looks like a mad girl with a P license was trying to run the red light and slammed the side of the car on the back passenger side, to where Lisa was sitting. The car spun twice. Mom was in shock and I think she lose consciousness for a slight second and only realize that Lisa was gone when she saw the back door opened and Lisa was nowhere in sight. Malam lagi tu. Sakit jantung aku fikir. She tried going out from the car but the door was stuck. Things do tend to get worse when something bad is happening. Sigh.

After Lisa was thrown out from the car, I guess she panic and all she can think of was the last accident so she get up and ran away, so afraid that the same thing might happened again but the problem was, she was running in panic and it was dark and raining and anything could happen. Luckily, there's a very kind man who saw the whole thing and ran to get Lisa and carry her to mom. He then offered to send Lisa to the hospital. Him and his girlfriend was so kind and attentive to both Lisa and mom that I could feel the rush of gratitude towards both of them.

"I feel like she is my own daughter. The way she put the sweater over Lisa when she's in cold, hugging her close and holding her feet between her palms to keep Lisa warm, and the words she spoken to me. I'm so grateful I wish I have done something for their kindness." My mom said that to me on the phone.

It's okay mom. You were in shock. Let us keep them in our prayer for their kindness.

That night, I wish it had all happen to me instead. Kesian bah. Lisa, still so small and have to endure that kind of experience. Twice.God knows I love her and mom more than anything in this world. I'm so grateful that both of them are okay.

Thank you Lord for everything. And God bless the two good Samaritan and keep them safe in whatever they are doing.

Coincidence, that's all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence.
There are no miracles.
There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be.

Voldy's gone moldy?

I'm an ardent fan of Harry Potter. I admit that. So, my overly excited feelings for the Part 1 of the final movie is totally understandable.

Jom p tgk wayang! Wohooo!

I'll leave you with this quote from Hogwarts' Headmaster:-

"Do not pity the dead, Harry, pity the living. Above all, pity those who live without love. - Albus Dumbledore"

And you can watch the trailer here:-

http://harrypotter.warnerbros.com/harrypotterandthedeathlyhallows/mainsite/index.html

After all is said and done...I sincerely wish and hope for all the happiness in this world for you.

Have a good life.

I'm doing just fine.

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You go girl.

Life...

...is simple. Maybe just not easy.

I wonder how the writers do it. They must have lots of writer's block moment and yet they keep coming in with new books and stories. I don't exactly have any kind of block but it's just that whenever I have something to write about, before I even start typing a few words, there's always this heavy feeling or excuse coming out from deep within my chest that makes me stop and never start on anything.

There has been so much things going on in these last few months and naturally for other people who's having this kind of moments, there will be much to tell...lots of stuff to share but suddenly I'm becoming more private than ever.

Life has been fair. I'm grateful for everything. Whether it's hard, it's great or it's confusing...gratitude is all i feel right now.

Sometimes you see people around you chasing after something, walking fast to be there first, to save the time and go to the next thing. Even myself feel impatient with how things are turning out once in while. There's always a need to feel something in a blink of an eye. To have something right away.

But at this very moment, I feel like I just want to go slow with the flow of life. Something like going slow motion with living. I don't want to hurry but be there when it happens.

And I'm happy just the way I am now.

Life

Life is what happen when you busy not making any plans but just live life the way you know how.

Bila kana call pukul 3 pagi...

...ini lah kejadian dia. Terpaksa ada luahan nda tahan mau simpan nda dapat tidur.

Satu ja la sy mau bagitau kau. Jangan telampau jahat sama orang sebab apa pun yang berlaku akan jadi sama semua orang juga bergantung sama macamna gaya kau selama ini. You reap what you sow. Or the famous saying of what comes around will always comes back around. 

Cuma kadang-kadang, kalau pasal mentaliti, susah mau ubah sebab kalau sudah memang tembirang seja gaya sama cara berfikir memang tembirang seja la tu biar apa pun kau cakap. Ramai juga yang nda pandai sedar yang kalau dorang buat jahat sama orang sekarang, benda-benda begitu mesti (200% mesti) akan berlaku juga sama dorang tu lain kali. Telampau banyak sudah contoh berlaku mcmtu. Kalau kau masih nda tau, then you'll have your time soon. Bukan juga mau menyumpah orang tapi mcmtu seja baru orang sedar supaya jangan telampau jahat sama kasi betul sikit tu pikiran lah kalau buli.

Jangan ada tu fikiran yang kalau masa tu kau ada duit, 'ada-ada' la orang bilang, semua orang lain yang miskin kau mau pandang rendah. Atau kau mau sampai orang terfikir yang kau anggap dia mcm sampah-sampah seja teda guna-guna sebab apa harta pun teda jadi apa cakapan pun nda buli pakai. Kau gila kah? Ingat orang kaya seja punya cakapan buli guna kah?

Ni kali tia pa. Saya faham juga kenapa mau buat begini. Kasi chance la. Lain kali, bila sampai sudah masa dia semua benda mau bongkar kasi shove di muka kamurang, I wish to God saya ada sana masa tu. How dare you do all these things to the person I love most.

All the things she and I have been wanting to say to all of you. Especially her. Saya nda apa lagi, muda lagi baru 17 tahun jadi ada banyak lagi benda yang saya belum terasa semua. Tapi pigi buat benda begitu sama orang yang berpuluh-puluh tahun suda hidup di dunia. Macam nda cukup-cukup lagi kesusahan mau kasi rasa. Jaga la kamurang semua betul-betul nanti.

Sabar seja la dulu ah. Everything will always go right in the end.

Of Being Dusun

I almost forgot just how proud I have always been of being born a Dusun girl. Of how unique the culture and the language are. And how beautiful everything it represents.

It must be because I've been listening to Dusun's songs almost everyday these last few weeks and sometimes it feels closer to home and it makes me realize that I'm not that Penangite after all.

I have to thank my friend Jewin for telling me about his sister's blog (in which I have taken instant likeness after reading the first entry) and also the song in the post that have made all the forgotten emotion to re-surface and I have this huge fondness for the kid Sakril Sidik @ Adi who sang that song, Tinggur Bulawan beautifully. It's just so sad that he passed away too soon. May his soul rest in peace.





There's so much to tell about Dusun and I'm not quite sure if I can do the justice it deserve in writing so here's something short taken from Wikipedia. If you want to know more, go get a Dusun friend now. ;-)


"The vast majority of Kadazandusuns live in the hills and upland valleys and have a reputation for peacefulness, hospitality, hard work, frugality, drinking, and are averse to violence, although in the recent past they did indulge in headhunting as part of their tribal wars.

Kadazandusuns are known as the Latin artists of the East, being famous in the state for love and passion for music. Their traditional dances appear attractive and gentle full of passion for life, making the Kadazandusun culture a popular and beautiful one, and much sought by tourists to Sabah.


Even though Kadazandusuns are known for their peaceful nature, they are also well known for their bravery and defiant nature towards oppression and foreign rule." - Wikipedia

I once had a chat with Jewin about the on-going dispute between Malaysia and Indonesia.

Claire: Macamna la kalau tiba-tiba durang pigi serang kita?
Jewin: Nda payah takut ba kita di Sabah. Kita kan born warriors.

Hehe

p/s Intangai ku kaagu ti sorita nga amu pama haro dusun-dusun dau pointulis...iti nopo nga kosukup lah. :-D

Make It Go Away

My chest have been hurting since last night. It hurt so much it won't go away anymore. It is there all the time and all I can do to ignore it is to keep myself busy with work. It's not because I had a nasty cough or that I ran into a pole, but it's like the one you feel when you lost something you hold dear, or when you realize that it's hurting too much, or when you see someone you love can never be happy with you the way they are happy with somebody else.

The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo

Guess who get to play the most coveted role of The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo alongside delicious man Daniel Craig?

Rooney Mara.

Rooney who? Hehe...not Wayne Rooney. Relax.

Natalie Portman, Ellen Page and even Scarlett Johansson auditioned for the role but I guess they decided to go for a new face this time. The problem with new comer is that, they sometimes lack the experience to come out with a good acting skills and own the character. There are many example of this and I have already experience the Swedish version of the movie and was hugely disappointed. Maybe because the movie was in Swedish and I'm not familiar with the cast and the language so it could be the reason why I could not bring myself to even finish watching the movie.

So when I first heard that they are going to do the Hollywood version of the best selling trilogy by Stieg Larsson, I was very excited and been waiting anxiously for who will get Lisbeth Salander's role.

So now that I know, I'm not really sure I'm satisfied with the pick but I really hope she'll do a good job with it. Please please please lah bah. You already got Daniel Craig for Mikael Blomkvist's role so at least be at the same par of performance lah k Rooney.

:-o

Help me pack.

Though the feeling hasn't passed

Kali terakhir di Silitech

Baru lepas main badminton lewat petang td.

Rasa macam mau pingsan pun ada.

Bergegar2 segala jari jemari dan senda sendi.

First Sunday of August

Sometimes they say that people around you know about certain things more than you do because they have been doing the observation so they will judge better since they are not clouded by any emotion or bias perception about the matter.

And once it happen, you will say things like 'If they only knew!' - well, they don't. Because they're not you. Let me put it this way. Someone can care for you and still not understand your every motive, emotion, need, and desire.

Life have been confusing and hard these days but somehow, out of nowhere there's this feeling bursting out from deep within telling me that it is all under my own control and decision. People can say and tell you about many things - of what to do and what is right but at the end of the day you will be alone again and it is actually depend on how do you want to live your life and no one else can live it for you. Put aside whatever people say about things and just do what you feel right.

This time around, I am going to do whatever I want to and start all over again. Doing the best I can for my own life. Along the way, people will drop by and leave their markings on the door and soon they will be gone and that is meant to be. Their turn have come to put a color to your sketch of life. And when they are done, go on and do the same.

Just be grateful of it and be happy.

How To Deal With Negative, Difficult Person.

" I think the scariest person in the world is the person with no sense of humor. So that's a test. If you have doubts about someone, lay on a couple of jokes. if he doesn't find anything funny, your radar should be screaming. Then I would say be patient with people who are negative, because they're really having a hard time."

- Michael J.Fox.

My Blueberry Nights

And........I'm back. Good as new.

It's really is a good thing that I enjoy movies as much as I love books. I can always depend on them to have a laugh, to cry over a touchy moments, to relate on some of the incidents and to always help me to restart my thoughts all over again.

It's My Blueberry Nights for tonight and you can see my favorite singer Norah Jones in it. I never knew she could act. She's actually quite good and looked very pretty in the movie as she is in real life. Jude Law is in it too. As well as Natalie Portman and Rachel Weisz. There you have it.

It was pretty slow in the beginning and throughout the movie but it suits me just fine with the mood I was in earlier.

Here's some of my favorite quotes in the movie.

Elizabeth: When you're gone, all that is left behind are the memories you created in other people's lives or just a couple of items on a bill.

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Elizabeth: The last few days, I've been learning not to trust people and I'm glad I've failed. Sometimes we depend on other people as a mirror to define us and tell us who we are and each reflection makes me like myself a little more.

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Katya: Sometimes, even if you have the keys those doors still can't be opened. Can they?
Jeremy: Even if the door is open, the person you're looking for may not be there, Katya.

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Jeremy: From my observations, sometimes it's better off not knowing, and other times there's no reason to be found.
Elizabeth: Everything has a reason.
Jeremy: Hmm. It's like these pies and cakes. At the end of every night, the cheesecake and the apple pie are always completely gone. The peach cobbler and the chocolate mousse cake are nearly finished... but there's always a whole blueberry pie left untouched.
Elizabeth: So what's wrong with the blueberry pie?
Jeremy: There's nothing wrong with the blueberry pie. Just... people make other choices. You can't blame the blueberry pie, just... no one wants it.



There's a lot more in that film. And it's fun to see how cocky Natalie Portman can be at a game of Poker.

I'm glad that I don't have to be in a complicated thoughts before sleep tonight.

Good night everyone.

Untitled.

I don't really feel so good today.

The day started quite okay but somehow it changed and now I just feel...low.

I'm quite a sport about many things and rarely ever want to lose my head over something. If I can just rationalize things a little patiently, I'll be as happy as a clam in no time. Even though one of my close friends once said that I am probably the most sensitive girl in the world, no one actually really saw it through me because I don't often get worked up over something that did not matter much to me. Most of the time, I am just a happy mind-my-own-business type of person.

But then, everyone have their own moody time. Even me. Especially me. I just know how to hide the emotion better than most people.

With things going on in my mind, suddenly I feel small and stupid. About actions that I have made previously. The way I thought so much about petty things and so on. Plus, there's a major self esteem issues going on with me at this very moment. I don't really feel pretty. And for the first time, there's a few things that I started to hate about myself.

Every once in a while, people would tell me that I'm starting to look fat or that my ass is a bit small or they think there's something wrong with the way I walk, but I never actually really care much about other people's opinion when it comes to looks and physical attributes. So it's all fine. But not today. Right now, if someone says that they think I look tired today, I'll take it that they mean I look like an ugly ghost and that I should have think twice before deciding to open the door and go to work this morning to save everyone from having to torture their eyes with the very sight of me. That thought alone actually pisses me off right now. Shit.
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Sigh.

I know perfectly well that no matter what I do, how I dress, how I act, what I say, or what my opinions are, people would only choose to think what suited them the most. Some guys, for example, will look at me and wonder why their friends think that I'm attractive. Others will think I look more like an alien from another planet than as an actual human being. So I might as well just be myself, and gravitate towards those who really accept me just the way I am. You'll be surprise how judgmental anyone can be these days. Even families or close friends.

It's kind of embarrassing to feel this way. I always thought that no one will ever get under my skin with matters as trivial as this. Sigh. I guess today is the day that it happen.

Starry Starry Night

I have not been getting enough sleep these last few days...drinking milk was no help and reading a book certainly didn't do anything good either. I think I should have a stock of beer ready in the fridge but then there's the bulgy belly so...no thanks.

I feel like a living dead walking on a silent creepy grave on the hill kind of thing. My eyes is like a panda. Dark circles so obvious you would have thought it's the real deal. So really going to sleep early tonight. I mean right now. Good night everybody. Peace and out. Zzz

Peace. Love. Empathy.

After reading Mel's post about death, I can't help but feel a sensation of apprehension deep in my chest thinking about those things that I'm putting aside whether because I don't really know what to do about them or if it's because there's nothing I can do to make it the way it should be. Either way, there should be something, small as it may be that I can do to make a little difference but I'm just not sure.

I have been trying to live my life without ever taking anything or anyone for granted. I may not always like that but I tried and still trying. Everything I own now, they may be gone tomorrow. The nice little earring I bought the other day may be lost while I'm busy looking for things and it get stuck among the rubbish and I may accidentally throw it away.

People that I love, how sure am I that I can have them next to me forever? I can't. I know.

It would have been so much easier if everyone really mean what they say and learn to listen with empathy. I did not do that every time but I wanted to. I want to call my sister now and tell her I'm sorry that things turn out this way and that all mom and I want is for us to be happy. That if we may have failed her in any way, we never meant it to be that way.

But even when I'm going to say that with nothing but honest intention, I can't be sure that she'll listen to the sincerity of those words. It easier to play the blame game and keep on doing what you simply feel like doing regardless of whether it's the right thing or not.

And there are those matters that's still not settled. Friends. Enemy. Loved ones. Relatives. Haters. Admirers.

But then they said there's just some things that's better left unsaid.

Hmm.


On not so different matter, there's this movie titled Mr. Nobody starring Jared Leto which show us the many different lives one person can live, depending on the choices he makes every step of the way.

The possibilities is just endless and it makes us see life in an interesting way. There are good or bad choices in life and each choice will create another life for you. It makes me think that maybe there's a very good reason behind all these uncertainty and unknown possibilities. Because when you know everything, then what's the point?

In the movie, the angel missed the marking on him when he was...I guess that was in heaven so he knows everything. He know the sort of life he'll live if he make certain choice. And at the final scene, because he knows, he can't bring himself to pick which life he wants. So he ran away.

And I guess by running away, it is also another one of those different life. No?

It's a very interesting movie and if you have decided to watch it, then I hope you will enjoy watching it.

Leaving it to you to define it.

'...pure unashamed passion. Without definable restrictions.'
'I'm sorry to say I have a few issues with that.'
'Why?'
'Because, some have there to suggest. That even poetry have rules.'
'Or you make your own.'
'Right there, that's the part I never bought into.'
'Because?'
'Because if everybody runs around making their own rules, how can you... find what's true? There's nothing to rely on.'
'Maybe what's true is in front of us and we're moving toward it without even knowing it's there. Once you think you've got it all solved, what's left?'

- Edward Norton & Keri Russell in the movie Leaves of Grass based on book of poetry by Walt Whitman .

I'll leave you with the OST from the movie. Enjoy.

To Love A Woman

I saw Daniel's post about Enrique Iglesias's song and it remind me of this one song of him together with Lionel Richie that I really like back then.

Beautiful lyrics and awesome voices. Both of them.

First...

Go not to the temple to put flowers upon the feet of God,
First fill your own house with the Fragrance of Love...

Go not to the temple to light candles before the altar of God,
First remove the darkness of sin from your heart...

Go not to the temple to bow down your head in prayer,
First learn to bow in humility before your fellowmen...

Go not to the temple to pray on bended knees,
First bend down to lift someone who is down-trodden...

Go not to the temple to ask for forgiveness for your sins,
First forgive from your heart those who have sinned against you.

- Rabindranath Tagore

OMG

I can barely breath. This news is just too exhilarating. I didn't expect it to be this fast. Shit. I'm actually panicking. Damn.

Jay Baruchel a 5? Come on!

I think he's at least 7.

He's the kind of guy that makes you laugh for real and he's funny even when he's being honest. He really did play the part well.

I was talking about She's Out of My League. I seriously didn't think that I was going to enjoy it as much as I did. The story line may be a bit kind of familiar but the script is fresh and I kind of dig it. Yeah. Haha

 You're probably looking at the right side. Nope. Left side. Nice!

The feeling is almost like watching The Proposal which is very original and funny in my opinion of that movie. Except that it's not really the same so you can't really compare between these two. Each is entertaining in their own way.

I'm so going to watch it the second time.

Next, he won't be around at the airport checking metals that set off alarms. He's going to do the coolest job ever. The Sorcerer's Apprentice. Awesome!

Daddy's Day

So it's Father's Day today. I never took any notice of this particular day before simply because, well I don't really have one while growing up so I just look at it like any other usual days. I was pretty cool with it and it's been like that for most of my life and I just never really thought about it that much.

Up until recently, yes it did come across my mind. To summarize it a bit, I sort of googled my father's name online a few months back (I think it was last year) and since he's involve in some kind of Cultural Group in Sabah, it was easy to get the information and his...phone number. Told you I am very good with google-ing.

You must be thinking that this was like searching-for-the-lost-dad-i-want-to-know-him-before-i-died-or-he-died kind of thing but no. Actually it just one of those random things I tend to do out of boredom and I didn't thought much of what's going to happen if I really get in contact with him. I mean I even googled my own name so...you get the idea.

Well, it was awkward. What do you say to someone after 25 years of total absence in life?

After that particular day of weird talks and confusions, finally the contacts was made and he'll pop up on and off in our life every once in a while just to say hello and stuff like that. I was just in KK a few weeks back and had one on one drinking session with him that this idea of Father's Day came across my mind. I was looking at his wrinkled face (noting that he's not as handsome as he was before in the only picture we had of him at home) and wonder if he's expecting me or my older sister to wish him a Happy Father's Day this year. I guess I would not since he never did the father-ing stuff and he's not even real to me to be honest. Just someone to fill my parentage history in forms and certificates.

Anyway, he got his own other son and daughter to wish him that so...never mind.

So that would be my first entry for Daddy's Day. You guys should be able to do much better than that. To a few of my friends who got kids of their own now, I wish you a very Happy Father's Day.

Journey to the North

Finally.

I was in Never Land for a few weeks in search for the Mirror of Incanta and I must have stayed longer than I planned to be. I just needed that one wish left of the mirror to get everything back to how it used to be.

But I lost my bag of pixie dust so I couldn't fly back home and have been walking on my feet since then.




And the wish is yet to come true.

Poetry at 2.07am

I saved you one yellow mango
For Tuesday
Two yellow mangoes
On Friday
You didn't know I did
Now I have three yellow mangoes
And it's Saturday.

Watch out!

For a moment there I thought I was getting quite enough of chick-flick and love story and ready to push the stop button. Somewhere along Leap Year, I was thinking 'cheesy', 'duh.so predictable' and stuff like that while rolling my eyes at the same time. I was like 'can you believe that?can you seriously gonna buy that?'.

Anyway, luckily I still have the 'aww' moment at the happy-ending final scene amidst the unbelievable cliches going around. And at least it's confirm now that my next destination to travel is Ireland. I almost forgot how beautiful that country is since the last time I watched P.S I Love You not so long ago.

What I've been feeling lately is that, these stories are getting typical and awfully predictable day by day. And as much as I love Gerard Butler, I didn't even pick Bounty Hunter among Shrek and Robin Hood when my friend ask me to toss between these three now showing movie to watch tonight. Well, to be fair at least maybe because I've seen Robin Hood last week and no one would agree to not want to watch Donkey and Puss, hence the rejection...no? Or maybe it's because I'm not a fan of Jennifer Aniston. Yeah. Part of the reason.

Ok la. Pigi la bah tingu kalau kamurang mau. I am just venting out. I'm not even sure why I feel like this now. I've always love these kind of stories. Wouldn't miss it for the world. But I guess, too much of something is never good right?

Happy weekend people. As for me, going to watch Antonio's fat ass tonight. :-D

Leap Year

A lot...

...of things going on in my mind.

Sigh.

Good Job!

It feels really good to be appreciated. Even more so when it comes with a compliment. All your hard work and continue support will never went unnoticed. So always do your job well.

Kind of

The world is bad enough without people trying to make someone elses life a living hell. Just be nice people. No matter what you said to justify your reason behind being what you call tough or straight forward, I am never going to buy it. So stop trying to convince me.

Next time, think before you say something so it won't come out wrong. For just one time, try hard to be nice. Leave every person you meet better than you found them. You have no idea what they may have gone through.

Want A Change In Mood? Eat Some Toffee.

There are many reason for me to be stressed or unhappy.

The work at the office is piling up and I went home feeling exhausted everyday. I wanted to do at least a bit of a reading but even before getting to the next page I was already fast asleep.

There are many things and plans I wanted to get started but I don't have enough moolah to do anything about it now.

I'm still stuck at this office. Scanning my card at 8 in the morning and spent 10hours of my precious time doing things I don't really care about.

And I haven't heard a thing from the hundreds of resume I sent applying for a job somewhere else. Maybe because all the time I was only halfhearted and blindly applying for 'the job' because I know deep down that it's not what I really wanted to do. So I guess I haven't been sending out the right signal to the universe so they are a bit confuse as to what I was attracting and they don't want me to get what I don't want. Does that make any sense to you? Pfft.

Well, that is exactly everything that I can choose to feel and think every five minutes if I let my mind to dwell about it long enough to affect my emotions. However, I choose to simply change what I was thinking to something good and I don't think I'm unhappy anymore. Just like that.

Rather than replaying and analyzing all those bad and sad thoughts, I push my mind to think of grabbing some chocolate mint toffee which I saw at my colleague's desk this morning. Now I'm typing this to you while helping myself with one. He wouldn't mind a few missing.

Remember my post about having a plan? That also helps you to move forward and have a sense of purpose no matter how small it may be. Get you excited and help setting a new priority to think about. Mine would be to decide what to cook before April ends in about 1 and a half day left.

Good luck to me! :-D


08:48pm Update
Just had dinner. Guess what? Nasi Lemak. So, that's the recipe for April. Barely made it eh. It's my first time cooking Nasi Lemak so there's still a room for improvement. Plus, the ingredients was not really complete since I couldn't find it all at the nearby market and I was kind of tired after a long day at the office but I did try my best. The sambal was a bit too spicy and oily but the rice was yummy. I couldn't find any Pandan  at the shop (although I did take a peek at the neighbour's lawn and saw a bunch of it planted there but I was too shy to ask for one) so I just put some lemon grass and slices of onion into the rice mixed with coconut milk. It was actually quite good for first timer. I'm going to try cooking it again and i'll make sure it's a finger-lickin'-good one this time. :)

I'm a Vampire.

My health screening result is out today. Surprisingly, the cholesterol level is fine regardless of the many lemak berkrim that I have been gaining lately. The only concern is on the Haematology result which shows many Low sign and the doctor advised me to do further check on serum ferritin analysis.

I have known for quite some time that I have a low Hb everytime I went to any blood donation campaign. Today is a proof enough for me to be considering taking care of my Iron intake seriously.

This is what my colleague said to me after peeking at my blood result.

"That's why you always look pale. You should eat mo spanish", he said. Which I figure out quickly enough that he actually mean spinach.

The doctor advised on supplementary which have high Iron and B12. I guess I should also make cereal and oat my daily breakfast from now on. And of course not forgetting the spanish.

Some of the signs & effects of iron deficiency are:
- always feeling tired and weak
- difficulty maintaining body temperature
- decrease in immune function

Tannins that are found in tea decrease absorption of iron which means I have to stop my habit of drinking tea while having my meal. Sigh.

Kellogg's Corn Flakes for tomorrow then.

Told you I'm a vampire.

Sing It Like You Mean It.

That I think would be a very good advice for those who want to perform and sing.

Actually, I've been listening to the songs in my playlist and heard some of the song that I've always dreamt of singing in a show, if I ever get the chance again. :)

Here's some of the songs.

1) Tina Arena - Burn
2 ) Maria Mena - Just Hold Me
3) Meredith Brooks - Bitch
4) Anastacia - Left Outside Alone
5) Lady Antebellum - Need You Now
6) Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten
7) Norah Jones - What Am I To You
8) Tracy Chapman - Give Me One Reason
9) Stacia Orico - There's Gotta Be More To Life
10) The Pretenders - I'll Stand By You
11) Bonnie Raitt - I Can't Make You Love Me
12) Avril Lavigne - Innocence
13) Rufus Wainwright -Hallelujah
14) Pink - Just Like A Pill
15) Duffy - Warwick Avenue
16) Leona Lewis - Run
17) LeAnn Rimes - The Right Kind of Wrong

.... and the list goes on and on. There are many songs but I'm putting only a few here or I'll never stop. :)

By the way, for some reason I'd really really like to sing Gallery by Mario Vasquez just because I think the song is so damn catchy. But I guess it would be really hard to pull that off since I'm no Ne-Yo nor Bruno Mars.

Apparently Unaffected

If I liked rejection, I'd audition.

Maria Mena - Just Hold Me Lyrics
Comfortable as I am
I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are
You count the days

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know

And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
still care

You say you see the light now
At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn't matter
I wish I didn't give you all

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know

And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I think I did have good days

And why(why) can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

Wtf

I finally lost it.

They said my voice can be heard as far as the last desk about 100m away from the meeting room.

The thing is, it's just hard for me to believe how some people can be such an asshole. They say everyone has their limit. Just now was mine.

It takes almost all of my self-control to refrain from telling them to just go fuck themselves.

Tattooed Girl

I know it has been a while since the last time I updated this blog. Been staring too long at the stone basin looking for a lost memory. 

It was when the leprechaun came and told me that the tattooed girl is coming back soon that I pulled back into reality and began to breath fresh air again.

I wish it was that fancy. It's not. But at least the excuse is creative. 

What triggered me to finally make an entry was because I heard that a new Hollywood remake of 'The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo' which was initially done in Swedish is on the way and that they are looking for a girl to play Lisbeth Salander. Not that I dream of auditioning. I am just interested in who will play the girl diagnosed with Asperger syndrome and a genius hacker blessed with a photographic memory in that new film.

The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo is the first book of the Millennium Trilogy and the most interesting-page-turning book to me personally. Well, actually to be honest I have only read up until the second book - The Girl Who Played With Fire and looking forward to reading the third one - The Girl Who Kicked The Hornets' Nest. I have yet to make a review on that one. The author, Stieg Larsson died at the age of 50 on 2004 and the first book was published a year later.

The initial movie in Swedish was played by Noomi Rapace as Salander and Michael Nyqvist as Mikael Blomkvist. And it failed to meet my expectations. As usual, I was anticipating an exciting and thrilling movie since the book was damn good but it was really a let down. The acting didn't manage to impress me and Rapace was just not how I imagined Salander to be in real person. There are many interesting scene that can be extracted from the book but somehow I was so bored I watch it halfway and went to sleep.

So I am ready to not expecting too much on this Hollywood remake. At least, I hope it would be bearable to watch until the end.

Now the exciting part is to see who's going to take the role of Lisbeth Salander this time. It was reported on the news that Kristen Stewart of Twilight is auditioning for the role. I hope it's not her. She's pretty and everything but I don't think she'll do Salander the justice she deserve.

Ellen Page who starred Juno was also on the poll of who'll be the tattooed girl and I think she's very good in acting but she's just...too cute.

I prefer Katherine Moennig in terms of the face and attitude but I'm not so sure about her acting as I only saw her briefly in Everyone's Fine.  

Natalie Portman? Too pretty for my image of Salander in my head. The girl should be extremely skinny and plain enough to play someone who's lacking social skill but at the same time should have the vibe of being mysterious.

Cote de Pablo  is just okay. Nothing much I can say because I'm not familiar with her work.

The one who will be playing Lisbeth Slander should be in her mid 20s, very 'emo' type of girl, around 150cm height and extremely skinny. Whoever win that role, I hope she will do a good job at it. It really is the main character.

Well, that's the name I saw popping up on the web. Who do you think should be the girl?

If you haven't read the book, here's the link for you to buy one. :)

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (Vintage)

One of those days

Outside, it's raining heavily and I'm inside trying to update the blog while fighting off migraine. Feel like hitting my head on the wall. Can only manage this. Off to sleep now. Dammit.

EARTH HOUR

Shut it off people. Save Mother Nature.

How Much Does Your Life Weigh?

I watched this movie ' Up In The Air' starring George Clooney while I was having dinner.

I am not really good at movie review or any kind of review for that matter and I don't remember either when was the last time I had my descriptive and summary writing. I believe it was around 90s. Yeah. That long.

But I'll try my best this time. Firstly of course I really think it's a good movie and there's a lot you get from it. Things that makes you think and ponder about. Especially when it hits home. Just made me remember how last year has been a real sucker to me and I believe it's the same with everyone. The down sizing, the pay cut and all those shit.

Apart from that, there's also the bit about the 'empty back pack' thing. Love the idea and philosophy behind it. Makes me want to think of my own back pack and how much it weigh and if it has slowed me down or stopped me from moving. Motivational thing usually work best to me on moving visual rather than words on papers. I am what you call the visual combined with auditory types of person.

I know so far that this has not been a very good review but more like a personal reflection. I guess you just have to watch it yourself and then you can tell me what do you think about it and instead of a single review we can do something like a short stories and do forum based on what we think. Or maybe not.

So let me ask you this.

What's in your back pack?

Morning In Your Eyes

I woke up early this morning to send off KC at the bus station and as I was driving home on the bridge to cross over to the main land, a beautiful gold and orange hues was just coming up right over the vast far away hills ahead.

Morning sunrise.

Right there and then, I feel a surge of contentment for the present. I would say that the title of Eckhart Tolle's book, The Power of Now is one way to describe it. To be grateful for the moment and living the life at present.

Waking up to a sunrise is one good way to start the day.
Enjoy the song here by Norah Jones, Sunrise.



You can't change what happen yesterday. And you don't know exactly what will happen tomorrow. But you know where you are right now and what you want to do for the next 15seconds.

Have a great day ahead. :-)

Treading Water

My body aches all over. Especially on the lower back and at the triceps or is it biceps area.

That's what happen when you only physically stretch your body every once in a while. You tend to overarching your whole body. I think I should really change the swimming class to twice a week at least. I have only been going every Wednesday and by the time I have to swim again, my body muscle have all turn to fat and my birth breathing control is not going well with the instructor's advice to relax more inside the water. And of course it's pretty hard to relax when you need to remember which and which first-the hands, the legs or the head while at the same time making sure the technics is right (you can't really use the free style kicking but use the breaststrokes hands right? Even if it's waay easier) and also trying not to drink so much of the pool water. Eww.

Honestly, the only technics I'm so dying to learn is actually the Eggbeater Kick. The one you do when you want to stay afloat and smile and wave at people. That's the one. I can already swim to-and-fro but only without stopping. I wanted to be able to stop right in the middle of a pool and giggles and play water polo. I mean what happen if I suddenly get too tired and I can't really swing my hands to swim anymore? Am I supposed to just sink underwater and die?

Maybe I should go cycling again after work this evening. To tone up the legs intended to do kicking. I mean while I'm trying to get to the other side of the pool and also if I ever learn that egg kind of kick in near future.

If you have some tips, I'm all ears. Or maybe in this case, all eyes? But I really don't need to hear something like eating a lot of fish or getting one as a pet okay. I might as well eat a lot of birds since I love Peter Petrelli so maybe we can go flying together. Duh.

Are you the kind who always have a plan?

Any plan gets you excited. It pumps the adrenaline and you feel exhilarated. Even simple everyday to-do-plan can wake your mind up from a slumber boring routine. Suddenly you have something new to do. Something to look forward to.

I was writing down the monthly budgetary plan on bills and suddenly I feel excited. As I was checking all the boxes, it looks like the total sum of every bills to pay every month is getting lower. I look forward to maintain it that way.

That sounds like a plan to me. How about you?

Deliciously Authentic

After last weekend trip to Danok Thailand, I thought it's only appropriate to cook a Tom Yam dish for March.

Bought quite a lot of the Tom Yam paste and cube during the short stay at the place best known for providing pleasure in so many ways I'm sure you can think of one and I have tasted a delicious Tom Yam Soup made by a Thai cook during the visit to the Water View Restaurant where they deliver the food you have ordered via boats.

Try reading that in one breath. Anyway, the place sound interesting kan? Very.

Having cooked the recipe quite a few times with acceptable standard, this time I only have to improve it to another level.

Deliciously authentic. Seh~

I'm sure it will come in handy when there's a need for me to meet someone's mother in not-so near future. [giggles]

Will share the ingredients here once I found out the best recipe I can create on my own with the help of the many existing one you can find anywhere in this virtual world.

Stay tune darlings.

Nobody

Love this song. I know it has come out for quite some time but for me, now is the right time to be so stuck with this song. Been watching a few of Korean drama lately. I'm so loving Hwang Tae Kyung in the drama 'You're Beautiful' and actually this song is not in the OST but for some unknown reason, I see fit to post this song side by side with the drama.

Pig-rabbit

Here's the lyrics both in Korean & English & also the picture of Jang Geun Suk playing Hwang Tae Kyung in the drama You're Beautiful. Damn he's irresistible.


Korean

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo nigaanimyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Nan silheunde wae nar mir eonaeryeogohani jakku naemareun deutji anhgo
Wae ireohge dareun namjaege narbonaeryeo hani eotteohge ireoni

Nar wihae geureoh dan geumar
Neonbujok hadaneun geumar
Ijen geuman haeneon nareur aljanha wae won hajido anhneun georgang yohae

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Nan joheun de nan haengbok hande neoman isseu myeondwae deo baral geeopt neunde
Nugur mannaseo haengbok haran geoya nan neor tteonaseo haengbok harsueopseo

Nar wihae geureoh dan geumar
Neonbujok hadaneun geumar
Mari andoeneun mari ran georwae molla niga eopsi eotteohge haengbokhae

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silh eo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You

Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want nobody body body.I don't want nobody body
Naneun jeongmar niga animyeon niga animyeon silhdan maryaa~

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You I want nobody nobody But You
Nandareun sarameun silheo niga animyeon silheo
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

RAP)
Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Modeunge neomuna kkumman gatatdeon geuttaero doragago sipeunde
Waejakku nareur mireo naeryeohae

Why do you push me away. I don't want nobody nobody

Nobody nobody but you.


English

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to, to make me leave ya
I know what you're thinking
Baby why aren't you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know it's not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can't we just, just be like this
Cause it's you that I need and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way I
I feel when I'm with you, no one will ever do

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so
You know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want no body, body
I don't want no body, body

Honey you know it's you that I want, it's you that I need
Why can't you see~

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody (2x)

Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me
So tell me why can't it be
Please let me live my life my way
Why do you push me away
I don't want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you.

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Down The Rabbit Hole

Alice In Wonderland directed by Tim Burton is showing in cinema this week. Been waiting ages for it. My favorite children's story other than Anne of Green Gables & Si Anak Gajah back when I was a kid.

When I first saw the promotional poster and trailer, I thought the girl was a bit old for playing Alice compare to how it was suppose to be in the book. So I went searching for the synopsis on Wikipedia and found out why. In this movie Anne is now 19 years old and accidentally returns to the place she visited 13 years ago.

I didn't really read through the end of the article. Don't want to lose the element of surprise. And trying to keep my expectation on average of course.

Air That I Breath

Love cycling. Always been able to make me feel good while riding around and taking a breath of fresh air. It's calming. Especially when there's a lot of things going on in my head and I just need to find a way to ease my mind. Not all things can be spoken to another human being. Sometimes the nature seem more understanding by just listening quietly.

He he he

Bought this yesterday. :-)

All in one. I can carry this around easily.

Eat. Pray. Love

Today I am just going to do some laundry, tidy up the room and then spent the rest of the day reading.

There's plenty of books in the rack that I have yet to finish reading.


Happy Saturday peeps! :-)

Catch Me If You Can

It's not the 2002 comedy-drama film based on the real life of Frank Abagnale Jr.
Just me thinking of going mobile.

Mobile: Capable of moving or of being moved readily from place to place.

So I need to do something about the room. I have finally come to terms with the fact that even if I didn't like everything or every corner of the house, at least I should be able to find comfort and peace in my own bedroom.


And also me being at-the-ready situation if there is a need for that some time later in near future. Now let's see a few items that I may need or those that needed to be disposed to a dumpster.

First, I should seriously think about getting a laptop so that I can remove the computer table aside. And also getting a proper book rack so that I can optimize the usage of every free space available. Maybe I should find one that is multifunction, adjustable and all-in-one rack to place everything.

I have also been thinking about getting a vase. Putting flowers and change it every three days maybe. Or just buy a tiny earthenware flower vase with a sunflower in it. I am so loving the idea of that one.


What do you think?