Saturday, November 29, 2008


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29th Nov 2008, I finally managed to export the old blog to this new blog. There was something wrong with the old blog where it wouldn't allow more than 1 column display. First suspect was the coding within the post itself where some of them were created by the method of "copy-paste" from a Microsoft Word document which then translated its own query onto the blog post body. Apparently,this coding had made major changes on some of the template layout configuration, especially margin and padding positioning.

I tried to revive the column by editing the html coding but to no avail even with a new default template was loaded, replacing the original coding.

I decided to import-export that old-troublesome blog to this new location by using the same url link as most of you've noticed.


Friday, November 28, 2008

what happen today

I don't know what happen to my blog & i don't know why but there's some error that makes all the contents listed in one column...but no matter....i know Wel can help me put it right later....hehe minta2 kana tulung ni Wel...

So....apart from it is Friday..the day of laziness, i'm enjoying myself making fun of my own pictures...hehe

Presenting.....the greeaatt.....Claire Bennet....hehe

the great witch on the run...hehe

i know you love me..but isn't the tattooing a lil bit too much dear...hahaha


uina..who's that?? hahahaha


Thursday, November 27, 2008

The People Declaration

...extracted from the declaration, here are bits of the points that caught my attention & interest;

In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful
We, Malaysians of all races and of various faiths, pledge to uphold at all times the foundational principles of the Malaysian Constitution, namely... A federal administrative system that fulfills its responsibilities, and protection and respect for the special position of Sabah and Sarawak

We will initiate measures to build and foster unity among the various ethnic and religious groups, having as our aim the evolution of a people with the common aspiration of justice and equality for all. To that end, we will... pay special attention to the Orang Asli in the Peninsula and all the indigenous groups in Sabah and Sarawak, and amend various laws and regulations pertaining to them so that justice is served, including establishing a Commission to protect Native Customary Rights (NCR) land and to resolve disputes relating to such lands while respecting their traditions and customs;

... strengthen national integration by restoring the rights and privileges that were promised to the people of Sabah and Sarawak Genuine democracy must provide meaningful space for the people to express their views and to participate in various processes of daily administration and not merely to voting once in five years. All interest groups must be allowed to present and debate their views. Information will be free available subject to strictly defined restrictions. To that end, we will

... repeal the Internal Security Act and and all laws that presently permit detention without trial. Reducing the people's burden:

... Reduce the fares of domestic flights between Peninsular Malaysia and Sabah and Sarawak to promote national unity and domestic tourism

... Develop the road system in Sabah and Sarawak... Give priority to projects which generate the greatest benefit to the people, projects such as medium and low-cost housing, modernization of the railway system, road projects in Sabah and Sarawak, and others

Education:... Improve standards and facilities for schools in the interior, especially in Sabah and Sarawak... Recognise the right to study the mother tongue like Chinese, Tamil, Iban, Kadazandusun and others in schools, and improve the implementation of policies on mother tongue education, so that it is more efficient and responsive to the demands of parents. Trained mother tongue language teachers must be supplied by government schools when at least ten students need such teachers, and the training of mother tongue teachers must be improved at teacher training colleges and public institutions of higher learning

Women:... Protect the rights and welfare of women who have been abandoned by their husbands without any reasonable support... Enforce strictly laws regarding the rights, interests and dignity of women and abolish laws and regulations that discriminate against women

and so forth....many other things covered but in my journey of supporting the rights of my beloved people in Sabah, listed above are my priorities to fight for..who else are going to care & worry about us other that we ourselves?

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Check & Balance

I personally like this particular article very much.

If there's a crisis we are facing, the easiest & smartest way to solve it is to list down all the problems in priority order & u can actually look at it much more clearly & then you will know what to do so that you can at least tackle half of it.

Why do i seems to have so much passion for politic & rights when most of us must be thinking that it actually has nothing to do with them?

Simple explanation.
I can't sit & do nothing and I can't also pretend i don't care when i know something can actually be put straight.

And it also not entirely politic that make me keep on track. Politic only brings frustration & unneeded bewilderment. But the fact that it also brings out many great men/women & not to mention informative articles & mind blowing opinions, makes politic worth peeking on.

The only problem is that sometimes it's feels like it's beyond our control so that's why i think most people just don't want to bother about it.

I'm not exactly going to talk about politic in this entry. What i really want to stress on is that it just cross my mind a second after reading the above article (refer to link), that somehow all the things that i have been worrying can actually be solve if the most important issues & problem back in my homeland can be prioritize in a correct order & also if there is someone who actually can & want (not to mention capable) to do something about it.

Let me try to list out all the main problems we Sabahan face in our land.

1. Violation of the 20 Point Agreement
2. Lack of Competent Leaders
3. Corruption
4. Terrible rate of poverty
5. Poor education system
6. Attitude

I know there are more but then let me only take these 6 points here.
If we follow like how on the article did, solving item 1 can ensure our rights on control over our own land by our own people.

The rights to control over;-
1. Immigration - so the issue of the overly populated illegal immigrants will not be as bad as now because then the federal government should not be able to veto the entry of persons into Sabah and manipulated its purpose solely for political interest.

2. Tariffs and finance - so that our money from our rich reserves can be used back for our own development. We are to share so unfairly among the other state & left us with not even a handful of grasp.

3. Education - so that the budget for education is not controlled by the federal government.

4. Representation in Parliament - so that our voice & woes can actually be heard & that Malaysia can start to think equally of us as a fellow Malaysian & not just some forgotten-not-important part of the country.

5. Land, forests, local government, etc;- so that the federal can not nationalize our oil and gas resources. Why choose to give the state only a 5 percent royalty? Several requests for an increase in royalty to 20 percent were unheeded.

There are 15 other point left to be discuss but just these 5 points are enough to see just how vital the 20 points agreement is. There are many who will challenge this especially those from west M'sia who find that taking out their passport to the officer at the KK airport is irritating & seems unfair as we from Borneo can just go in and out to their side of land with no such hustle...but see how this violation makes us sabahan? Tun Abdul Rahman the 1st prime minister promise to take care of us Sabah & Sarawak so that we can move foward and be developed equally as in Peninsular. Does the promises fullfilled? We don't ask that long of the agreement to take place...just enough till all is taken care of. After that, it can be revise which suited best interest. But now...we are still the poorest state despite our abundance natural resources & there are still no mutual sense of belonging to the country regardless of the fact that Malaysia is formed in 16 September 1963 & not 31 August 1957 & just see how blatantly those people opposed an appreciation for the day which means public holiday for all.

Can't you see how items 4, 5 & 6 can take care of themselves if we solve item 1 first. And if item 2 can be look into, that should tackle item 3 effectively.

I do not want to start on us Sabahan to start producing intelligent minds & capable youth as i'm neither one nor the other.

The concern here to me is...if all above can actually be done...then i can stop worrying so much of the state of my family well-being especially in case of money where it matter most in this recent economic slowdown. And also it can help to create awareness among my cousins & relatives that education is important so that even if it makes individual difficult to drive, it makes them easy to lead & govern - put fresh idea in their mind, and at least it will be impossible for them to be enslave - which is a good thing.

And maybe then, all good things will start to come for everyone of us in whatever that is we wish for....happiness...sense of security....acknowledgement...or maybe just satisfaction in equality.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

God Do Exist

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed. As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation. They talked about so many things and various subjects. When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said:"I don't believe that God exists."

"Why do you say that?" asked the customer. "Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?

Would there be abandoned children?
If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.

I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things. The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument.

The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop. Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt. The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber:

"You know what? Barbers do not exist.
"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"

"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."

"Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not come to me."
"Exactly!" affirmed the customer.

"That's the point! God, too, DOES exist! That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him for help. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

one of the best explanations of why God allows pain and suffering that I have seen...


"I have found the paradox, that if you Love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more Love." - Mother Theresa

I wish everyone of us have more love, more empathy & more kindness in our heart for those around us. - Claire

Monday, November 24, 2008

Mr Johnny Boy

Johnny wanted to have sex with a girl in his office,
but she belonged to someone else...

One day, Johnny got so frustrated that he went up to her and said, "I'll give you a $100 if you let me screw you.
But the girl said NO.

Johnny said, "I'll be fast. I'll throw the money on the floor, you bend down, and I'll be finished by the time you pick it up."

She thought for a moment and said that she would have to consult her boyfriend...
So she called her boyfriend and told him the story.

Her boyfriend says, "Ask him for $200, pick up the money very fast, he won't even be able to get his pants down."

So she agrees and accepts the proposal.
Half an hour goes by, and the boyfriend is waiting for his girlfriend to call.

Finally, after 45 minutes, the boyfriend calls and asks what happened.
She responded, "The bastard used coins!"

p/s Moral dia...kalau mau tipu mesti mau campin..kalau nda jadi gni Johnny yg untung...hihi

Thursday, November 20, 2008

A Year Ago Today

Without realizing it..i get through The Day on Nov surprisingly okay. It's the day everyone of us dreaded in any point of our life...when everything reminds you of mixed bitter & happy memories...when all this time you were trying hard not to let your mind think of the things that you don't want to think...convincing your heart every minute of every day that there's nothing left for you to linger on & that you just don't care anymore...

however inevitable it may be..the day will come when suddenly, all are crystal clear...and you have to miss him.

But i realize that it was like looking at someone else life.

The memories were all there...but the pain couldn't really hurt me anymore. I guess i must have really move on then.

This song really have nothing to do with what i meant in this post..neither it has with my mood just seems like the song i wanted to listen to at this moment...even if the lyrics are not entirely true, considering that i pick it up for this entry...

"Another year older

A little bit stronger

A little bit wiser than? a year ago today

Looking over my shoulder

I was so much younger then

I cant believe what happened

A year ago today

And I just forget about it

It wouldnt mean a thing

You went away

A year ago today

Another year gone by

Oh the tears have run dry

Life seemed so unkind

A year ago today

And I just cant understand it

And I dont think I ever will

You went away

A year ago today

And how many times have I questioned myself

What more could I do

And how many times did I fool myself

Over you oh? yeah

Youve gotta pick yourself up,

Take another look

And dust yourself off cause lifes not too good,

Ill say it to myself and Ill say it again

Lover will never end

And though were so far apart

Youre forever in my heart

Another year older

A little bit stronger

On this anniversary

Youre watching over me

You went away

A year ago today" - Delta Goodrem

Monday, November 17, 2008

It's not so paradise after all

Now all my sleepiness or drowsiness earlier today have all gone after one phone call.

Nina just called me and told me everything about what happened. Apparently, the Borneo Paradise (that's where we plan to do our reunion) had just experience change of management. In short, all our previous quotation/inquiry//budget/ not valid anymore...

I was speechless for awhile when Nina told me about this. We have planned about this reunion for like half a year earlier already...dari tahun lepas cadang then volunteer la mau urus start kira2 awal tahun ini...Maybe there's a bit of mistake from our part because we never set a Plan B but still if that place have any respect & value for their customer, they would take all necessary action required. Was it our fault that the management decide to change hands? huh...

Yang bikin panas dia, it was like we never even do any deals with them...setengah tahun sda bincang psl tu tarikh sm durang then tiba2 cakap tu tarikh mcm nda available sda..ada kunun rombongan lain book..Hello? Around June this year the rooms was still very much available..knp la skg penuh.. we decided to find another alternative place for about only a month left now and if we can get it then it would be great but if we can not get it then terpaksa la stick sja sm ni tempat skg dan bayar lebih...tu pun kalau ada bilik available lagi...dogGONE btl!!

be positive girl....everything can still be settled in time..

p/s If by some miracle we manage to find some place else better for the reunion venue, I'll make sure the Borneo Paradise boss & management get some bloody complaint letter from me. You wait. Because no matter what, "customer always right". And it's goddamn true that we are right in this one.

well, maybe half right. but they still going to get that complaint letter from me.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008


For the first time in my life, i made a police report yesterday evening.
For attempted physical & emotional harassment by a guy who've been tailing me everyday from work to my house for the past three weeks.
Yeah. You read me right. Someone scary was following me.

This is actually a very long story & i never thought of posting about it because that bastard is not worth even a second of my time.

But about a month now, he had been waiting for me in some junction near the company so that i will not be aware of his presence & will follow me closely until i reached my home which was never. I will drive around the housing area or stop in front of shops to get rid of him. I even shouted at him before to stop following me & to leave me alone.

"Awak boleh tak jangan kacau sy lagi? Tak faham2 bahasa ke?"

And he will try to form words from his mouth which i barely listen to everytime because i will raised the car window up before he get time to put his hand inside the car & open the door.

You have no idea how much all this recent event had made me feel. Sometimes i can't help from crying when i'm so frustrated because i can't get away from him but i wanted to go home but i can not let him know exactly where my house is or else something worse may even happen.

I really don't feel like sharing this. I don't want to think for even a second about it.
It's really scary & i'm not yet ready to lose my sanity.

Girls, be aware of these things & never to wait until it's too late.

Monday, November 10, 2008

The Weekend

My weekend was good. I sound like trying to convince myself that.
It WAS good okay. We have drinks...we went to the pool..jet ski & on horse. Well i did not went on the jet ski & i only sit on a walking horse...but nevertheless it was very fun & i made few new friends.
Then why am i still feeling like this? Like something is amiss.

I'm trying not to think of any silly & negative thoughts now....

Friday, November 7, 2008

RPK to be freed this afternoon! (Updated)

Oh my...i'm very very very happy after knowing that RPK will be freed today. It's such a great relief! ;) I wish i can be at the court & watch the scene...

i guess Obama winning must have something to do with this. Yes We Can!!!!!

Updated: He's really is a free man...yeay! i just wish the same thing would have happen to the other detainees such as Hindraf's people. Fighting for your own rights is totally not a terrorism! Stupid Albar there. i'm not going to let that stupid moron taint my jubilation...;)

p/s i'll wear the t-shirt today for a show of full support!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Barack Obama In History

source: Malaysian Insider

Barack Obama is the first black president of America.
The question now for us Malaysian is....can we move forward & take this example of democracy & equality regardless of race, skin color or religious belief to achieve Malaysia for All?

Love Is In The Air

I think i'm in love. or infatuation. whatever you call it. maybe it's mutual.....or not. i don't care.

I realize about it deep inside my heart for quite some time already, i just try not to bother about it so much because i know i'll get over it or he'll be off my mind in no time...why? because there's really nothing i can do to make me & Mr Charming together. The option is unthinkable & impossible. And he doesn't even have the same feeling towards me anyway. So, i thought forgetting him would be easy enough.

How wrong i was.

My mind would often wander back at the first time we made eye contact on that particular night. It was quite hard to describe. I heard someone coming from the gate & i tilted my head to look..and found myself face to face with him & for a fraction of second, i saw something flickered in his eyes. Maybe it's just an expression people had over familiarity but i like to think of it as because he felt the chemistry too.

Then he asked me out a few days after that.
I got in the car, he kissed me on the cheek & told me i looked great. That...should be the perfect first date for me. ;) He was & still is the perfect gentleman. He never let me out of sight throughout the night & hold me every now & then just to show that he's there. ;)

"Where have you been? I've been looking for you." said Mr Charming
"Owh..i just need to go to the washroom..." I feebly answered.
"You should have told me & i can walk you there."

I simply stare at him. It actually felt so surreal at that time. No one ever made me felt quite like that before. Well, a perfect gentleman is known to be a rare breed. It's just that there's no pretentious there & it was as if that's how he's always been. His own self that is cool, romantic (in a good way of course) & funny. Plus, he's a very good dancer. We

Tell me...How can someone look that good, that charming and not showing typical pretentious at the same time? Owh..i have my fair share of being in & out of i'll know right away if the guy is a fake or simply not my type.

Why why & why do i always ended up liking someone who does not feel the way i do...or someone who's not available. Maybe it's true that all the good guys are pretty much taken.

And i'll be seeing him again soon. I know i should stop this while i can. and of course somehow...sooner or really has to stop [isk..] Even right from the start, the relationship spell t-r-o-u-b-l-e. I'll get hurt in the end. But as always, i guess it's worth it for the time being. ;) It's not like i have anything better to do anyway. and as a single most available lady..i can do pretty much anything i wanted to. and also i'm not asking anything from him anyway. just a comfortable & nice company will do. ok...good excuse. clever me. plus it's about time i start seeing someone. or maybe not...not like this..owh God..i'm doomed.

p/s I had a mental argument about posting this entry...but there's a very good chance of me exploding over a build up of uncertainty & confusion.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008


PISCES - The Dreamer (Feb 19 - Mar 20)
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Tends to be overly-sensitive. Doesn't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Lessons For a Lifetime..

p/s Chelsea win big!! 5-0 for cheese sake! he he