Thursday, February 26, 2009


Suddenly...i just feel like posting something...i don't exactly have any particular things to share about tapi sy mau juga menaip cni! nda buli meh? peduli la! [nah..sot] hahaha

Ni kali sy mau mencuba mo ber sabah punya post...kasi lupa sja tu yg awal2 sana atas yg bahasa asing k...hehe sy gila ka ni aa? mcm la sy rasa..hihiihi Sy mo kestau sy punya haiwan kegemaran sgt suka harimau...masa durang kechil sangat comel..trus bila besar..tersangat la macho sy rasa...grrr! [hihihi]

Punya gagah ba dia.

Sy paling suka kaler putih juga...jadi haiwan kegemaran + warna kegemaran...apa la jadi?? he he he..lihat hasil di bawah k...


Sy ingat lagi dulu2 sy pernah kestau mami sy...

"Mami..nti kalau dapat, sy mo p cari anak harimau yg kechil2 lagi mo pelihara."
"Kau gila ka. Mana blh pelihara tu. Ganas tu binatang. Lain2 juga kau ni. Byk2 binatang, tu juga kau mau."

"Buli tu...nti sy mo try p tanya2 di jabatan haiwan ka...zoo durang bilang kalau mau pelihara sementara sja..nda la ba mau pelihara sampai besar dan ganas. Nanti sy yg kana makan."

"Jgn kau gila2 sana."

"Kalau nda dpt tia pa la mo cuba sja."


Begitu la perbincangan sy sama mami sy masa tu...hehehe

tidak kah anda rasa ini sgt comel?

Sy ingat lagi dlu ada tu anak harimau kena jumpa di zoo melaka, kana kasi nama p gunting2 tu gmbr dia di surat khabar kasi lekat2 di buku...hehehe sy kira2 mo p lawat tp nda pula kesampaian mo p Melaka masa tu...skg besar sda kali dia....jahat sda mungkin. [sigh] Tu sja la cerita sy ni hari...harap2 lain kali ada peluang sy dukung anak harimau yg kechil2...yg nda jahat la.
Kau tgk sepa tu?

Oke...tu sja..terima kasih. [hihihi]

Cuti Cuti Malaysia

To All Employees,

Please take note of the following changes on March 2009's closure days, and kindly ignore all previous mails pertaining to this subject.

The closure days for March 2009 for all employees will be:

Friday, 06/03/2009
Friday, 20/03/2009
Monday, 23/03/2009
Friday, 27/03/2009

In addition to the above, all EXEMPT staff will have to take additional two days of No Pay Leave of your own choice.

Kindly take note of the above accordingly and we apologize for the inconvenienced caused as this action has to be taken due to the low orders demand as compared to our forecasted figures.



Dear Beloved Readers,

It's been 3 month in a row, 6 days of No Pay Leave.
Should i be looking for a new job?
Or should i be looking for a part time / extra job?
Anyone willing to put my despair & trouble away? Any suggestion?
Ada yang mau kawin sy ka? Sy mau yg kaya sja k.


Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I Miss......home...

I know i have not do much of an entry lately...i just could not write the thoughts into words... I'll let the picture do the talking then...or more likely the writings.

I miss being around my family... :(
Sy mo nangis ni....tsk tsk

Happy Ash Wednesday

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Last Nite & Today

It seems like i have a lot to share but can't seem to relate all the things together to make it a proper story... hahaha I'll try my best lah.

1. i went to Flare Bar & Restaurant last night and had a drinks with my friend Deon who came all the way from KL to do some work related thing here in Penang. It was also my first time to the bar which is owned by another friend, Sunny. It is in Batu Feringghi, a very nice area but it's a bit far from the bustling town so the crowd was not like if you go to Slippery Senorita or even Soho. But for me, the place is good, i did not get the chance of tasting the food yet as i arrived quite late & i actually took dinner earlier...but the music is great (also the bartender...hehe) & i had so much fun drinking & dancing & yes, pretending to be a lesbian. I do that. hahaha I wanna put more info here but i don't want to spoil the curiosity & suprise for my friends who've been planning to go there soon. Just one thing tho, i like the washroom. I couldn't help myself from smiling when i wash my hand...owh and you can choose too...;)

2. it was last year in one post...i think it's Vera who commented it, saying that i'm a type of girl that is not easily impressed or not easy to please. I was actually quite suprised because i never thought i'm like that. I mean maybe sometimes i get cerewet...we all do..but i thought it's pretty easy to make me laugh or to suprise me in anything. But then, after that.. i kind of sense it and realize that i am like that sometimes...well ok maybe most of the time. I do not think that it's a bad character tho..don't worry Vera...nothing personal. just bussiness [tiba2 ba kn] hahaha Still i'm not going to elaborate on which part it is that is hard to please lah..hehe The relevant of this revelation to this post is that, it is hard sometimes when you get to a situation of disagreement. You just don't think that something was THAT great but obviously some people did & make such a fuss about it like there is no other thing and hate you because you don't & then made remarks like...yeah, that's how you think everyone is a waste of space. Gosh! It's really annoying but i did not say or do anything for the sake of friendship.

3. I'm waiting for a call from the supplier to send the sample part for my approval now & i'm still hangover & i want to sleep.

4. I'm going to the campus later today & maybe stay over for the night. My friends been nagging me about it..they scarcely ever had a glimpse of me nowadays...that's what they told me. Thought of menyimpang pegi main basketball on my way down there..hehe

The End.

Friday, February 20, 2009


A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales. The teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though it was a very large mammal, its throat was very small. The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale. Irritated, the teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it was physically impossible.
The little girl said, "When i get to heaven i will ask Jonah."

The teacher asked, "What if Jonah went to hell?"

The little girl replied, "Then you ask him."

A kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while they were drawing. She would occasionally walk around to see each child's work. As she got to one little girl who was working diligently, she asked what the drawing was.
The girl replied, "I'm drawing God."

The teacher paused & said, "But no one knows what God looks like."

Without missing a beat, or looking up from her drawing, the girl replied, "They will in a minute."

One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the dishes at the kitchen sink. She suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette head. She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked,
"Why are some of your hairs white, Mom?"

"Well, every time that you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs turns white."

The little girl thought about this revelation for a while and then said, "Momma, how come ALL of grandma's hairs are white?"

The children were lined up in the cafeteria of a Catholic elementary school for lunch. At the head of the tables was a large pile of apples. The nun made a note, and posted on the apple tray: "Take only ONE. God is watching." Moving further along the lunch line, at the other end of the table was a large pile of chocolate chip cookies. A child had written a note, "Take all you want. God is watching the apples."

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Bits from inside the cave

  • Phil McNulty - Sport Online chief football writer
  • 9 Feb 09, 05:38 PM

If anyone ever doubted that Roman Abramovich still takes more than a passing interest in the affairs of Chelsea Football Club, then the brutal sacking of Luiz Felipe Scolari on Monday provides the most compelling evidence to the contrary.

The sudden dismissal of Scolari just seven months after he was paraded in a barrage of flashbulbs and a blizzard of optimism in a plush Cobham hotel in Surrey has all the hallmarks of Abramovich's refusal to settle for second best.

Chelsea's hierarchy smiled in satisfaction back on that sunny July day when "Big Phil" charmed allcomers with his sense of humour and clever command of the English language. Chelsea boss Luiz Felipe Scolari

Abramovich was absent - but his fingerprints were all over the appointment of the man he wanted to bring the Samba touch to sterile Stamford Bridge.

It all seems an age away now as the coach who won the World Cup with Brazil in 2002, and looked like he would win everything in sight in the opening weeks of the season, is sacked with a ruthlessness that might shock even seasoned Chelsea observers.

As Scolari walked in for his coronation in Cobham - arriving between an advert for a Tom Jones impersonator and a "Legends Of Swing" tribute night - he was asked a question so loaded it almost groaned under its own weight.

"Are you a Special One?"

In other words, are you big enough and good enough to banish the ghost of Jose Mourinho haunting Stamford Bridge?

"So so" came the answer from The Modest One - and ultimately his failure to make Chelsea's fans and players forget the hugely successful Mourinho reign may have played a part in his eventual downfall.

The glorious opening to the season was punctured spectacularly when Liverpool ended an unbeaten home league run stretching back 86 games in October. It was as if a magic spell had disappeared with something as simple as Xabi Alonso's deflected shot.

Chelsea's iron-clad self-belief was gone. The aura of invincibility that gave Chelsea a huge psychological hold on opponents disappeared with it - Scolari needed to fashion a new start and failed.

But the decision to end Scolari's reign effectively in its infancy still comes as a surprise, even to those of us who have observed a succession of lifeless Chelsea displays in recent weeks.

It is also an ominous signal that the clock ticks for coaches at the game's sharp end at an almost preposterous rate once results start to slide.

I watched Chelsea's home defeat to Arsenal and defeats at Manchester United and Liverpool. No shame there - but it was the manner that came as a shock to the system.

Chelsea were lifeless and had a chronic lack of ideas and invention. Manchester United outclassed them, and while Frank Lampard's unjust dismissal gave Scolari a straw to clutch at in the defeat at Anfield, Liverpool were still too superior for comfort.

It may have been a single banner and a few jeers in the goalless home draw against Hull City on Saturday, but once the tide of fans' opinion turns it is almost impossible to reverse.Chelsea fans call for Scolari to leave the club during the game against Hull

I found Scolari charming, gracious in defeat and disarmingly honest, a breath of fresh air. But there were whispers backstage at Anfield that all was not well.

A former Chelsea player told me that some senior players were not convinced by Scolari's methods and it was showing on the field. There were suggestions he was finding the transition from the hit-and-run style of international management to day-to-day affairs in a new country a difficult one to make.

I also have sympathy for Scolari in that success in football management, as in good comedy, can often rely on your timing.

Mourinho came to Stamford Bridge when Abramovich was prepared to lavish any sum imaginable on the team to attain success. He did a magnificent job, but make no mistake the cash helped him.

Scolari arrived when the purse strings were drawn tight - a situation exacerbated by a Chelsea team that was in serious need of a transfusion of new blood. He also had little to work with from Chelsea's youth system, overseen by Frank Arnesen.

Chelsea looked like a team coming to the end of a great era and in need of freshening up to conquer new horizons. Scolari's tools were never going to be as powerful as those at Mourinho's disposal.

Michael Ballack and Didier Drogba looked more like expensive, ageing luxuries with every passing week, while the young and hungry Michael Essien could only watch injured from the sidelines.

And then there was the Mourinho factor.

Do some of the players who hung on his every word still pine for the great man's return? It is a theory I think has merit.

He raised the bar - and Chelsea's expectations - to unimaginable, and now perhaps unattainable, heights and his succesors are suffering.

Will every successor be compared to Mourinho? It has been the case so far with both Avram Grant and Scolari.

Indeed Chelsea may continue to struggle until those emotional ties are cut, or new players untouched by the magic hand of Jose arrive at Stamford Bridge.

I actually believe Scolari is desperately unlucky to lose his job so swiftly, but the signs have not been good in recent months.

Chelsea are seven points off the Premier League summit, still in the FA Cup and in the last 16 of the Champions League. Scolari's successor will hardly inherit a scene of football wreckage.

The Stamford Bridge hierarchy are convinced they can still claim those trophies - but not with Scolari at the helm.

Scolari, a dignified and personable man, will be a loss to the Premier League, but Chelsea obviously believe he will not be a loss to them.

Despite being locked away in a dirt smelling huge cave, a leprechaun went visiting me last nite with this story [to add another shit around]...i could not help but to ask him to help posting it here...I love Big Phil...This is just another rubbish..and also to say thanks to friends that have been concerned of my well-being...Till then... Lots of love - Claire

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Gone to the non-being...

The owner of this blog is going to disappear for a while. May be hiding in a cave. Will be back when the curse is lifted.

Sunday, February 8, 2009


I love her more than anything or anyone in this world. So when something or someone hurt her, i feel an equal pain as well. And it's very frustrating when at that moment, i can not do more than what i did to help. I feel helpless.

We've gone through a very long period & years of difficulties some can only imagine. And i always wish for as long as i can remember, that i can return every small things..every sacrifice..she has ever gave me...everything.

And i will.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

The Golden Rule

"What is hateful to you, do not do to your neighbour." (Judaism) [Talmud, Shabbat 3id]

"All things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them." (Christianity) [Matthew 7:12]

"No one of you is a believer until he desires for his brother that which he desires for himself." (Islam) [Sunnah]

"Do not do to others what you would not like yourself." (Confucianism) [Analects 12:2]

"Regard your neighbour's gain as your gain, and your neighbour's loss as your own loss." (Taoism) [Tai Shang Kan Yin P'ien]

"Hurt not others in ways that you yourself would find hurtful." (Buddhism) [Udana-Varga 5:1]

"Seeing oneself in all and all in oneself, one does not injure others because that means injury to oneself." [from Nikhilananda Essence of Hinduism quoting Bhagavadgita]

Different sources but combine in the same ethical principle: the way in which we ourselves wish to be treated should be our guide as to how we treat others. The religious view of the question of good and evil is merely another reason for doing good, and definitely not an argument for the reverse.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

I Have A Dream

I was 8 when Mom spoke to me at the Penampang Union Transport (PUT) bus station in KK.

"I'm only going to teach you this once. So listen carefully. After today, you take the red bus from home that we took just now & when you reach this station, you take on the second bus over there which sign state to Luyang & you'll reach your school. It's the same when you're going back."

"But Mom, what if i get lost? or took the wrong bus?"

"If you follow exactly what i've told you, it's going to be alright."


"Remember, look at the sign of the bus carefully. Don't sleep in the bus. And don't stay back too late after school or you'll reach home when it's already dark."

"Ok Mom."

That's when i first Dream of being a Bus Driver. My very own bus.

It was 3 years after that, I was 11. I joined the Bintang Kecil singing competition in Dewan Masyarakat KK & even tho only winning the 4th place, that was when i Dream of becoming a Rockstar. Well, i wanted to sing the song 'Teringin' by Shima but ended up singing Nora's song..what do you expect? The teacher made me switch songs. Served her right.

My Dream improved a few years later. I was 14. I shoot a sharp 3 pointer for the first time & Dream of changing my name to 'Michelle' Jordan & be a Professional Basketballers.

But fate took another twist when i sat for my PMR examination a year later. I was 15. Uncle Ben whom i always look up to & the closest for being my own father, involved in a serious car accident that hospitalized him for many months...that's when i Dream of becoming a Doctor. Thank God he survived & recovered just all right.

I would have studied hard in Biology and took up Medic if not because of what happen about two years after that. I was 17 when the Dream changed. Something comes up and i really need my father to sort things up for me. And he wasn't there. He never did. I was so frustrated, i vowed to become a Lawyer & make sure every men who called themselves a father would sign the damn paper for responsibility or pay the price if they don't.

I end up going to Engineering campus become an Engineer. Which i never Dream of.

Now, I am 24. A few more weeks and i'm going to hit the big 5. My name is still Clarice Gerard regardless of how many times i put an extra 'r' to make it spell out Gerarrd.

And i haven't Dream.

What The Fork

It's 2.05am in the morning and i'm still awake.

Damn you.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Gym Class Heroes ft. The Dream - Cookie Jar

I'm so into the club mood hearing this song! Love it!

Leona Lewis - Run

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

February - The Month of Love

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love’s only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

Love isn’t about becoming somebody else’s ‘perfect person.’ It’s about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

Never say ‘I love you’ if you don’t care.

Never talk about feelings if they aren’t there.

Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.

Never look in the eye when all you do is lie.

It's cruel to let someone fall in love with you when you do not intend to catch them fall.

Love is also not about ‘it’s your fault’, but ‘I’m sorry.’ Not ‘where are you’, but ‘I’m right here.’ Not ‘how could you’, but ‘I understand.’ Not ‘I wish you were’, but ‘I’m thankful you are.’

How to be in love? Fall but don’t stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it’s more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea about how you feel.

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn’t worth it. If he isn’t worth it now he’s not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go…..

Happy February y'all......have a lovey dovey month! ;) [chuckling]