When it ended, I could feel my chest hurting and I was short of breath. Everything I felt before I opened my eyes, I could still feel every sensation of it, physically and emotionally. I almost cried trying to ease it away, assuring myself that it was just a dream. And the first thing I did instinctively once I woke up was trying to get away.
I guess what happen was, I was dreaming about something that I know have been bothering me but I never really talk about it and I just let it rest deep inside my subconscious mind. I know it may probably start sounding like something you get from the movie Inception but we all knows that some part of that movie is true.
And I still couldn't shake everything away, every flash of scene, every faces seen and every felt emotion. I had this kind of dream before. And what really hurt about it was, it may not even happen yet but it will and I'll know for sure a few days later. Like a call from a friend. Or a confession. The gut feeling you have just right after waking up.
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Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
I Have A Dream
I was 8 when Mom spoke to me at the Penampang Union Transport (PUT) bus station in KK.
"I'm only going to teach you this once. So listen carefully. After today, you take the red bus from home that we took just now & when you reach this station, you take on the second bus over there which sign state to Luyang & you'll reach your school. It's the same when you're going back."
"But Mom, what if i get lost? or took the wrong bus?"
"If you follow exactly what i've told you, it's going to be alright."
"Ok."
"Remember, look at the sign of the bus carefully. Don't sleep in the bus. And don't stay back too late after school or you'll reach home when it's already dark."
"Ok Mom."
That's when i first Dream of being a Bus Driver. My very own bus.
It was 3 years after that, I was 11. I joined the Bintang Kecil singing competition in Dewan Masyarakat KK & even tho only winning the 4th place, that was when i Dream of becoming a Rockstar. Well, i wanted to sing the song 'Teringin' by Shima but ended up singing Nora's song..what do you expect? The teacher made me switch songs. Served her right.
My Dream improved a few years later. I was 14. I shoot a sharp 3 pointer for the first time & Dream of changing my name to 'Michelle' Jordan & be a Professional Basketballers.
But fate took another twist when i sat for my PMR examination a year later. I was 15. Uncle Ben whom i always look up to & the closest for being my own father, involved in a serious car accident that hospitalized him for many months...that's when i Dream of becoming a Doctor. Thank God he survived & recovered just all right.
I would have studied hard in Biology and took up Medic if not because of what happen about two years after that. I was 17 when the Dream changed. Something comes up and i really need my father to sort things up for me. And he wasn't there. He never did. I was so frustrated, i vowed to become a Lawyer & make sure every men who called themselves a father would sign the damn paper for responsibility or pay the price if they don't.
I end up going to Engineering campus tho...to become an Engineer. Which i never Dream of.
Now, I am 24. A few more weeks and i'm going to hit the big 5. My name is still Clarice Gerard regardless of how many times i put an extra 'r' to make it spell out Gerarrd.
And i haven't stop....to Dream.
"I'm only going to teach you this once. So listen carefully. After today, you take the red bus from home that we took just now & when you reach this station, you take on the second bus over there which sign state to Luyang & you'll reach your school. It's the same when you're going back."
"But Mom, what if i get lost? or took the wrong bus?"
"If you follow exactly what i've told you, it's going to be alright."
"Ok."
"Remember, look at the sign of the bus carefully. Don't sleep in the bus. And don't stay back too late after school or you'll reach home when it's already dark."
"Ok Mom."
That's when i first Dream of being a Bus Driver. My very own bus.
It was 3 years after that, I was 11. I joined the Bintang Kecil singing competition in Dewan Masyarakat KK & even tho only winning the 4th place, that was when i Dream of becoming a Rockstar. Well, i wanted to sing the song 'Teringin' by Shima but ended up singing Nora's song..what do you expect? The teacher made me switch songs. Served her right.
My Dream improved a few years later. I was 14. I shoot a sharp 3 pointer for the first time & Dream of changing my name to 'Michelle' Jordan & be a Professional Basketballers.
But fate took another twist when i sat for my PMR examination a year later. I was 15. Uncle Ben whom i always look up to & the closest for being my own father, involved in a serious car accident that hospitalized him for many months...that's when i Dream of becoming a Doctor. Thank God he survived & recovered just all right.
I would have studied hard in Biology and took up Medic if not because of what happen about two years after that. I was 17 when the Dream changed. Something comes up and i really need my father to sort things up for me. And he wasn't there. He never did. I was so frustrated, i vowed to become a Lawyer & make sure every men who called themselves a father would sign the damn paper for responsibility or pay the price if they don't.
I end up going to Engineering campus tho...to become an Engineer. Which i never Dream of.
Now, I am 24. A few more weeks and i'm going to hit the big 5. My name is still Clarice Gerard regardless of how many times i put an extra 'r' to make it spell out Gerarrd.
And i haven't stop....to Dream.
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