Thursday, May 28, 2009


Feelings are not supposed to be logical. It would only make you more confuse & lost.

A lot of people ask me about my decision on being single all this while. Even my boss at work asked me about it. He could not comprehend the idea of someone as gorgeous & attractive [overkill. i know.] like me do not have someone special for quite a long time. Well, not really that long actually.

I'm sure many people will agree with me that after so many failed attempt at creating a happily-ever-after relationship, the feelings about the whole thing would eventually become stagnant in a sense of giving it the lowest priority in life. Most of the time, life is not just about being in love with someone [except your family]. And it's not just because of a bad past relationship either. Something that did not work out like how you want it should not necessarily viewed as a mistake or a bad thing. Things just happen sometimes. Either people simply have a change of heart or it's time for the other person to take on a new chapter in his/her life.

At one point, accumulate mix-feelings & the experience one had over the whole love-crush-heart break-infatuation-lust-vulnerable-stupidity thing will somehow make the person so over it that all he/she want to do is sit back & let life & time take over & decide everything. When you are ready, then you will. There's no need to push it or go looking for the 'thing' like some treasure hunt you used to participate in school & ended up settling for second best. To make do with what you have. Something you think you want but does not really sure if it's something mutual.

That is why i look at every encounter & moments with someone as a gift & my turn of sharing. Whether you realize it or not, each and every people that we get to meet help shape our mind, heart & life no matter how short the shared time is.

So, try never to look at people around you with just tiny regards but rather as an individual that contribute to your chain of energy, existence & happiness, which most of the time we never realize first hand but true anyway.

Monday, May 25, 2009

I'll be back..

A self-important college freshman walking along the beach took it upon himself to explain to a senior citizen resting on the steps why it was impossible for the older generation to understand his generation.

"You grew up in a different world, actually an almost primitive one" the student said loud enough for others to hear.

"The young people of today grew up with television, jet planes, space travel, man walking on the moon. We have nuclear energy, ships and cell phones, computers with light speed...and many more."

After a brief silence, the senior citizen responded as follows.

"You're right son. We didn't have those things when we were we invented them. Now, you arrogant little shit, what are you doing for the next generation?

The applause was amazing!

p/s been wanting to update more on many topics for quite some time but excuses always get in a way. I'll leave you with this great story for now & be sure to take a peek here some time soon...

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

The Perak Crisis Unfolds...

"Perak MIC chairman Datuk G. Rajoo said Nizar should get the mandate from the state assembly instead of seeking to dissolve the state assembly. Stating that the party with the support from the majority should rule, he said that a snap election would not benefit the state as more money would be spent." - The Star

What the fork! The party with the support from the majority should rule??? From which majority did he based on. No other than the 3 frogs who jumps i suppose. Just because they now have the majority of the seats does not mean that they got the majority of the VOTES from the people. These people who stick their brain on other people's ass really irritates me. He should seriously think of putting his brain back to his own ass. [haha..i'm pretty bad at this]

The only way of solving the Perak crisis once and for all is through a fresh election which will be determined by the rakyat. Never mind how much money would be spent. Who's money is it anyway? It's from the people & obviously not your money Mr Rajoo.

That's all i want to say. Need more fancy explanation & facts? Go read somewhere else. Berlambak.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

When All Is Said & Done

Here's to us, one more toast and then we'll pay the bill,
Deep inside, both of us can feel the autumn chill,
Birds of passage, you and me, we fly instinctively,
When the summer's over and the dark clouds hide the sun,
Neither you nor I'm to blame when all is said and done.

It's been there in my dreams, this scene I see unfold,
True at last, flesh and blood, to cherish and to hold,
Careless fools will suffer, yes, I know and I confess,
Once I lost my way when something good had just begun,
Lesson learned, it's history when all is said and done.

In our lives we have walked some strange and lonely treks,
Slightly worn but dignified and not too old for sex,
Clear-headed and open-eyed with nothing left untried,
Standing calmly at the crossroads, no desire to run,
There's no hurry any more when all is said and done.

Standing calmly at the crossroads, no desire to run,
There's no hurry any more when all is said and done.

When All Is Said & Done originally by ABBA covered by Pierce Brosnan & Meryl Streep in the MAMMA MIA musical play - one of my fav movie of all time. :)

The arrangement done for this song in the movie is really beautiful & the lyric is just meaningfully great. It would be wonderful to have reach this stage of life - there's no hurry anymore when all is said & done. :)

But i'm still young & i'll make sure to enjoy every minute of everyday that i have so that i can someday look at the path i've taken & indulge in the satisfaction of living a full life. We all have to remember that we're not 19, 25 or 40 forever. When you are 10 years old, do what 10 years old suppose to be doing. Run loose & don't be all grown up yet. The same when you're in the twenties [especially if you're still single..wink2] - use that hard earned money of yours & go sky diving. At least your body can still handle it & recover quickly than a 30 year old.

In a relationship, never be afraid of being vulnerable because if you're building walls around you to not getting hurt, you're also shielding yourself from being happy. Be in a state where you feel like there's nothing in life that you can't face anymore. And to do that is to open yourself to possibilities, risk & the unknown (i'm not a professional motivational speaker). ;)

As the famous quote says, "Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance."

God, if I can't have what I want, let me want what I have. Amen.

Friday, May 8, 2009


"someday everything will all make perfect sense, so for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason."

"let me analyse this..
(1) yes let him /her go if he /she don't love you
(2) yes let him /her go if that love cannot be translated into practical living
(3) don't let him/her go if the love is mutual
(4) and finally don't let him / her go if he or she is holding on to your hand hanging over a cliff" <---lol

Got this from fb comments about the idea of Letting Go. :)

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

The End Of Life As I Know It

G: A fella just has to tell a woman the truth without's like a signal you send out to the woman and she just picks it up.

H: And what's the truth?

G: that kissing her would be the end of life as I know it.

H: Well....and that's true of every girl you've gotten to kiss you?

G: I could turn it on and off when I was younger and had no principles...when every girl that I was lucky enough to kiss was the end of life as I knew it.

H: and now???

G: Now I only send it out when I think she might be the one that makes it true.

Guess which movie was that lines? I'm so much in love with Gerard Butler. ;)

She Believes In Me

While she lays sleeping
I stay out late at night and play my songs
And sometimes all the nights can be so long
And it's good when I finally make it home
All alone

While she lays dreaming
I touch her face across the silver light
I see her dreams that drift up to the sky
And she wakes up to my kiss
And I say it's alright
And I hold her tight

And she believes in me
I'll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday
If she was my girl,
I could change the world
With my songs,
But I was wrong.

But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I hope and pray,
I will find a way, find a way

While she lays waiting
I ask myself why do I hurt her so
What calls me on along this lonely road
Why don't I turn around and head back home
Where I belong

While she lays crying
Cause she knows how my heart is ripped in two
I'm torn between the things that I should do
She deserves it all and I'd give it if I could
God,her love is true.

Cause she believes in me
I'll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday
If she was my girl,
I could change the world
With my songs,
But I was wrong.

But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I hope and pray,
I will find a way, find a way

While she lays
While she lays for me

Ronan Keating - She Believes In Me

It's just a very nice song. :) Kenny Rogers did a very good job with it but i like listening to Ronan Keating. His soothing & very very romantic. [hehe]

Monday, May 4, 2009

You think i still care for a title now?

I'm so sick with the same old song that's been sung out for the past 6 years that i feel like killing people just for the fun of it.

My chest hurt so much i want to puke. I'm so frustrated i want to yell & get mad like a crazy bitch. Do any of you have any idea just how fucking hard it is to keep things to yourself & feeling helpless?

If i were there, i seriously think of slapping the sense out of her. She should be grateful i have not rule out the possibility of hating her forever. Because unlike some people, i think hatred only kill your inner self & left you to rot with bitterness in the end. But the way things are going on for so long till now, i may actually heading towards the pit of irreparable craziness & loathing.

Even falling in love with someone & listening to your favorite songs does not matter anymore. Who give you the right to feel so right when someone else is suffering anyway. When you think that no one can fault you for trying to live your life, think for a second of how long it will last before the dark clouds finally catching up.

If there's any evil out there wanting my soul in return for all this to stop, I will gladly sign the deal.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

My Sweet Song

My sweet song
It's been a long time
What'd you come around here for
Cause that old love is gone
And I've since carried on
Thought I was rid of you for sure
Oh my sweet song, you don't sound so
sweet no more

Please don't sing to me
Cause it hurts me to hear the melody that was
Good to me before
Oh my sweet song, you don't sound so
sweet no more

Oh you said love was forever and you told me
love would never
Break my heart, and I believed you as I fell
That's all over, let it go,
You're just a song I used to know
And your fantasy, it don't work for me
Go and pick on someone else

My sweet song
Guess I'm stuck with you
And someday, I'll find the love I'm looking for
Then my sweet, sweet song won't sound so
sad no more
My sweet, sweet song, I'll guess I'll always be yours

MySpace Playlist at

Toby Lightman – My Sweet Song (OST - P.S I Love You)