Burn

Do you wanna be a poet and write,
Do you wanna be an actor up in lights,
Do you wanna be a soldier and fight for love.

Do you wanna travel the world,
Do you wanna be a diver for pearls,
Or climb a mountain and touch the clouds above.

Be anyone you want to be,
Bring to life your fantasies,
But I want something in return,
I want you to burn,
Burn for me baby,
Like a candle in my night,
Oh burn,
Burn for me,
Burn for me.

Are you gonna be a gambler and deal,
Are you gonna be a doctor and heal,
Or go to heaven and touch God's face.

Are you gonna be a dreamer who sleeps,
Are you gonna be a sinner who weeps,
Or an angel,
Under grace.

I'll lay down on your bed of coals,
Offer up my heart and soul,
But in return,
I want you to burn,
Burn for me baby,
Like a candle in my night,
Oh burn burn for me burn for me,

I want you to burn baby,
Laugh for me,
Cry for me,
Pray for me,
Lie for me,
Live for me,
Die for me,
I want you to burn,
Burn for me baby,
Like a candle in my night,
Oh burn burn for me burn for me.

Burn - Tina Arena

Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is ok,
The first time in my life and now it's so great,
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed,
I think about the little things that make life great,
I wouldn't change a thing about it,
This is the best feeling.

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay,
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now,
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by.

I found a place so safe, not a single tear,
The first time in my life and now it's so clear,
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here,
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere,
I wouldn't change a thing about it,
This is the best feeling.

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay,
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now,
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by.

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming,
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling,
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry.

It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry.

This innocence is brilliant (It makes you want to cry),
This innocence is brilliant,
Please don't go away 'cause I need you now and I'll hold on to it,
Don't you let it pass you by,
(It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry).

This innocence is brilliant (It's so beautiful)
I hope that it will stay (It's so beautiful)
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away...
I need you now and I'll hold on to it (It makes me want to cry)
Don't you let it pass you by

Innocence - Avril Lavigne

Life

"Life should not be govern by religion but rather, by conscience." - Anonymous

Sy Masih Tercengang

Have you ever try typing your name on Google just to see if there's any result of your existence? muahahaha...i was just fooling around...and.....jumpa nama saya diceritakan dengan buli tahan juga la...hahaha sy masih terhibur sampai sekarang dan very happy... :) Thanks to Herrly...if you ever read this..or any of you know him....please send my regards to him ok....bgtau dia..sy nda sumbung ba..sy sukaaa berkawan...hehehe

Kalau kamu berminat sja la mengikuti gossip sy di mana puji-pujian agak melebihi dari kenyataan la actually...malu sy...haha...ada link di sini..kalau nda minat pun nda pa..nda pyh baca..hahahah

"mula-mula saya and kengkawan takut-takut lagi ni mau ambik gambar dengan si Clarice…coz, takut dia ni jenis yang mahal dan sombong-sombong…tapi, nasib baik lagi tidak juga….and di sini lah sya dapat peluang ambik pic dengan si Clarice…..YESSS…..hahahaha….akhirnya sya dapat gak ambik pic dengan dia…..artis keminatan ku…..hehehe….memula, sya tidak mau ambik…tapi, pikir-pikir…rugi juga kalu sya takut-takut ambik gambar dengan dia, sedangkan kawan-kawan saya dah ambik gambar dengan dia dah……peluang beb…so, sya pun tus p depanlah….lepas dia habis ambik gambar dengan kawan sya, sya pun p lah berdiri sebelah dia…memula sya jauh-jauh ni…nda sangka pla sya.., si Clarice tarik sya dekat-dekat….hehehe…mang dia ni jenis yang peramah dan sempoi pula…..dari cara dia bercakap, dia masih mengekalkan Identiti dia sebagai Student Sabahan"


http://herrly-shanley.blog.friendster.com/2007/02/student-sabah-juara-malam-bintang-usm-2007/

Pandai pula sy p tarik org kan...hahahha bahaya ni.


The competition he was talking about was my final MB in USM after 4years of representing my Desasiswa. :) I kinda miss it.

I've blog about it before. Here's the link if any of you miss my voice. hahaha

http://nanatz.blogspot.com/2008/07/night-to-remember.html

10 Reasons For Me To Kill A Guy

I don't have a problem with people getting interested in me. It's those who caught my attention... now that's a problem.

If you think that you are attracted to me. You can stay.
If you think that i can be attracted to you. Please go away or i'll kill you. seriously.

So what types of guy gets under my skin? Pretty easy really.

1. Tall - preferably my forehead just in front of his lips level. (an excuse to get kiss on the forehead all the time. Clever? I know.)

2. Sexy.

3. Deep voice - as close to Liam Neeson would be very good. Less is also acceptable tho.

4. Sexy.

5. Hygienic - not freakishly clean but at least cover the basics (shower daily, smell good, clean cut fingernails & brush the teeth please).

6. Sexy.

7. Does not have a problem with smart women.

8. Sexy.

9. Cool (define cool anyway).

10. Sexy.


So...that's it. Pretty simple for early impression. And if you feel that you have either one or more of those...please, go away. Too much trouble. Especially if.. when i stumble, you are not there, never intended really, to catch me fall.

Si Kopi

Ntah apa masalah aku dengan kopi pada kelahiran yg lepas. Aku jarang sekali minum kopi kerana kopi dapat menyebabkan aku tidak tidur 7 hari 7 malam. Tapi kadang2 aku teringin juga minum kopi. Aku pun minum la kopi pagi ini. Hampir tengah hari aku rasa pening dan mual. Kemungkinan kopi ni boleh buat pregnant. Aku geram dengan kopi. Mulai hari ini, aku akan lari sekuat hati apabila terhidu/ternampak si kopi. Cari gaduh betul la kopi ni. huh!

Extracted Quotes

1. A sense of self means knowing what you have to offer & not offering it too quickly.

2. If a man is really interested in a woman, he doesn't mind waiting; in fact, often he prefers it.

3. When a man disappears suddenly, with no real explanation, it is because there is something wrong with him, not because there is something wrong with you.

4. The only time you should believe the man who says "i'll pull out" is when you're waiting for his parking space. [giggling]

5. Men respect women who retain their boundaries.

6. Men who have a compare-and-contrast attitude towards relationship are not just picky, they're narcissistic.

He's Just Not That Into You

"Hello miss. What movie would you like to watch?"
"Erm, He's Just Not That Into You."
"Okay. 7.10pm. Two tickets miss?"
"Sorry? Err, no. Just one. Thank you."

Is it so strange going to watch movie alone? I mean, instead of assuming for two, why didn't he asked for how many instead?

Anyway, i really love the movie. Before watching it, there are many not-so-good reviews about it on the net. Like they want it to be more realistic & not just another Cinderella movie with a bunch of A-list stars just to draw people's attention in.

But i still love it. :)


Every relationship scenario experienced by the female characters in the film, from being cheated on, to getting overly fixated on someone they just met, to misreading "let's be friends" signals as "I love you" -- is a situation that I've known to apply to just as many men as women.


I love Ben Affleck's lines about why people don't have to get married. Some would have to get married before settling down with their partner because of religious requirement. And some just did it because it was what everybody has been doing for as long as they can remember. But they are also some people who does not believe in marriage. That just because other people are doing it doesn't mean you have to do it too. When we have a very strong feelings like we care or love someone, we can just spend the rest of our life with the person, be in a committed relationship & it does not matter if you are married or not because it does not guarantee that it will last forever. Getting married is like, you are feeling insecure with the relationship & there's a need to tie it down. But you love your friends too, & you don't go making some kind of signed-for-life ceremony for Best Friend Forever or something.

However, having said that, i still want to get married. :) Not because other people are doing it or because i have to for the sake of religion but because when i decide that i want to marry that person, it's because i really love him & that i'm ready to be his & his alone. Marriage is special. And different. That's why it does not happen to BFF but only between a lover.

There are still so many things i want to share about this movie but it's late & i'm sleepy. Besides, i don't want to spoil anything for those who have not watch it. ;)

Btw, i love Bradly Cooper. He's so so so hottt! I'm so going to sleep with him... (in my dream) haha

drools..... sigh..... ;)

Wishes

ok Mell...here's the tag. ;)

I don't actually do tags that often but i think i'm going to do this one... as a matter of fact, my 'second' birthday in a year is just around the corner, so i may as well put out my wish list..then maaaybe it will be granted. [wink wink]

Here goes the wish list for my second 25th birthday this year:

1. Harry Potter 1~6 First Print Hard Cover Books. [i only got the 7th book...tsk tsk]

2. Phoenix Tattoo

3. An hour Sand Timer

4. Birthday Snow Globes

5. A return Penang-KK flight ticket.


I'm suppose to list out 10 wishes but you see, i am a very reasonable person. I don't ask too much. I just decide to wish for all those 5 items twice (that makes 10 wishes) so now it's more powerful & likely to be granted. ;)

So now i have make the list of what i want for my birthday, and the list ARE 10 (5wishX2) & i have post the image too...but i'm not tagging anyone on this. ;)

Dizziness

I've been feeling dizzy & my eye sight blurry for the past few days. Even feeling nausea at times. Whenever i'm trying to look up to something afar, i'll feel lightheaded & i have to like open my eyes bigger to reduce the strain of focusing my eyes on something. Some say it has something to do with the balance organs of the inner ear. I just thought i might be getting 'rabun'. Or maybe because of the Vitamin A-Zinc + Spirulina + Garlic that i took altogether just before i felt like this on Sunday evening. But that's just vitamins. Not some drugs medicine or anything, no?

I tried sleeping early every night but that didn't work either. Maybe i'll go see the doctor this evening after work. sigh.

Mix Double....after the match

I'm nervous.

I know it's just a Badminton match but my colleagues have been predicting that my team would lose the first crucial match. That really makes me want to prove that they are wrong & underestimating me & my partner. It's a mix double badminton match.

I'm still nervous. Sot.

9.18pm....we lost the game...15-1, 17-15....sedih sy....sda la sy yg byk buat mistake masa main...then my partner keep pointing out this and that mistake that i made...blame me this and that..then ada lagi team lain sengaja p ckp2 to make me feel worse saying that "kesian partner u cover"....huh! i thought this was supposed to be a fun + enjoy competition...budu btl...sedih sy....nda la sda sy mo main badminton lg sampai bila2...dorang terer btl main la sndri.... :(

PHX

Dgn santai nya sy berjalan keluar office td then masuk kreta mo balik...sekali nya nda dapat start...apa la pny kreta nda sampai setahun bateri sda sot...hehe so sy panggil la lelaki2 gagah yg lalu lalang dengan tidak sengaja berhampiran untuk menolak dan menghidupkan semula kereta...si kereta pula merajuk mengkali kena tolak2 nda juga mo start....they push and push kedepan kebelakang..eh ke depan sja la..hihi nda jga berhasil..last2 salah seorang dari jejaka yg agak blh tahan hensem dia tolong start pakai jumper...tadaa....baru boleh..hehe Then sementara menunggu kereta sy bertenaga kembali selepas balik2 kana tolak..hahaha sy pun p bermain badminton skejap bersama rakan2 sekerja d court kilang...

Esok mo p service la tu di Perodua...then minta tukar bateri terus..nsb warranty ada...kesian si kereta...kesian jg sy 'terpaksa' nda kerja dan cuti esok...hehehe

Hamlet 2

I watched this movie last night. Well, it was quite interesting, funny, unique & a bit weird...hahaha I'm not sure what to expect before i watch it so it's a bit of strange-but-fascinating sort of feeling after that.

Go and watch it yourself. I'm not going to spoil anything. ;)


"Well, this play is gonna bitch-slap Broadway like a cheap hooker at a gangbang. - Cricket Feldstein"


p/s i thought it feels south-park-ish...the director is a co-writer of South Park? lol

The Boss & His Secretary

The Boss of a big company walked into the office one morning not knowing that his zipper was down.

His secretary walked up to him and asked,

"Boss, this morning when you left you house, did you close your gate?"

The Boss was not smart enough to understand so he went back into his office looking a bit puzzled. When he was about done with his paper work, he suddenly noticed that his zipper was not zipped up. He zipped up and remembered what his secretary had told him, then the boss finally understood.

He then intentionally went out to ask for a cup of coffee from his secretary. When he reached her desk he said,

"When you saw the gate open did you see my BMW parked in there?"

The secretary smiled for a moment and said,

"No, Boss. I didn't. All i saw was a Kancil 600 with 2 flat tyre."


p/s The swearing thing did not work out for me anyway. ;)

Damn

I'm having a rough day...everything seem to go wrong today..I did not actually feel very enthusiastic going to work this morning & things just get worse.

If u think I'm downright plain, boring & unable to express anger & sadness verbally does not mean you can say just about anything you pleases.

If you think I'm ugly, so what...shut you hideous eyes & go away..the sight of you make me wanna puke anyway.

All of you can just shut up & leave me alone.

And i don't need anyone to tell me to look at the fucking bright side or whatever bullshit you want to say...

Instead of saying things going to get better, why don't you help me with the swearing instead. I'm doing a bad job here. I did not exceed expectation in swearing vocabulary.

Shit.

P!nk - Funhouse Album

I just finished downloading P!nk's 5th album - Funhouse...yeay~! P!nk always got her way of making me feel much better & sometimes like i'm going to get crazy of loving her songs so much..haha Best ba suara rock dia...aishhhh This album speaks directly about her divorce.

I love all the tracks but my favorite would be 'I Don't Believe You', 'Crystal Ball', 'Sober' & 'Please Don't Leave me'. You should have watch her sing live. She sings from the heart & the connection is really amazing. You'll definitely get crazy too. hehe

To me, she's a very talented song writer + singer & her voice is just awesome. She realy got me right from her first single 'There You Go'. Her writings/songs have never failed to amuse me in so many ways. She stand up for what she believe in, very witty & funny at the same time not to mention daring & very creative. :)

She really is a rockstar. ;)

It's just a post

We all have our issues in whatever things we are trying to decide. Especially when it comes to a relationship. Sometimes we don't want to listen to our inner voice telling us what's real but choose to be realistic and let the so-called brick wall to take over for a some kind of a defense to being vulnerable.

Everyone got a bad past relationship & somehow that actually makes us mo cautious & picky to whom we want to give our heart next. I've learn & endure a lot of painful experience for being in love before but i still believe to this very moment that i can always love again. When the time is right. There are just so many types of emotion close to the definition of love that sometimes trick us into believing in it. We thought we are in love but at the same time we do not know whether it's mutual or not.

Well, define love.

As times passed by, usually we will realize that it's just a typical infatuation between a guy & a girl or it may actually is the strong feelings but it's just a one sided relationship.

What i'm trying to tell here is that, a relationship is a give-and-take and definitely needs to be equally involve between two person.

Sometimes, i have these thought of wanting the next person in my life to be a complete strangers so that we will have to start from scratch & that you don't have the problems of trying to be more that what you are so that you are good enough for them. They'll realize you are worth it because they found you out of the blue. Not something that have been in front of you for ages but you are just too stupid to notice. The good thing between falling in love with the guy next door & someone you met coincidentally is that, with the latter it's usually deals more on the future than with the past. Still, it's a tricky business.

Even if most of the time we tell ourselves that it's nothing you can't handle or control..it still hurt when the realization hits home. But don't keep dwelling on it. Wipe your tears & turn the page. After all, the sun always comes out again after every storm. :)

Reminds me of the song from Ciara...

"If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you...
Baby, I can't help but fantasize
Wondering what it might be like
You and I sound so right
But I'mma let it go tonight, it ain't nothin'
Coverin' my eyes
Ain't gonna see it more than twice
I get it, I got it
Baby, baby
Ciara ft Young Jeezy Lyrics - Never Ever"

By the way, i'm not giving up on love if that's what you think i'm doing.

It's just a post. :)

Today is Thursday

"Either live your dream or kill yourself. Never compromise." - Adolf Hitler

It's nothing to do with April Fool

I look fine outside..but no one knows how it is inside...
I'm not sure how long i can keep it & i don't want it to eat me out just like it did to them...

I wish i have a superhero's power...or angel's power to be exact...to get rid of bad things.
I wish you can get happiness like a click on your favorite channel.
I wish remorse is like breathing...you either live doing it..or died without it.

and i fucking hope wishes to be granted or else please get rid of that word.