Want A Change In Mood? Eat Some Toffee.

There are many reason for me to be stressed or unhappy.

The work at the office is piling up and I went home feeling exhausted everyday. I wanted to do at least a bit of a reading but even before getting to the next page I was already fast asleep.

There are many things and plans I wanted to get started but I don't have enough moolah to do anything about it now.

I'm still stuck at this office. Scanning my card at 8 in the morning and spent 10hours of my precious time doing things I don't really care about.

And I haven't heard a thing from the hundreds of resume I sent applying for a job somewhere else. Maybe because all the time I was only halfhearted and blindly applying for 'the job' because I know deep down that it's not what I really wanted to do. So I guess I haven't been sending out the right signal to the universe so they are a bit confuse as to what I was attracting and they don't want me to get what I don't want. Does that make any sense to you? Pfft.

Well, that is exactly everything that I can choose to feel and think every five minutes if I let my mind to dwell about it long enough to affect my emotions. However, I choose to simply change what I was thinking to something good and I don't think I'm unhappy anymore. Just like that.

Rather than replaying and analyzing all those bad and sad thoughts, I push my mind to think of grabbing some chocolate mint toffee which I saw at my colleague's desk this morning. Now I'm typing this to you while helping myself with one. He wouldn't mind a few missing.

Remember my post about having a plan? That also helps you to move forward and have a sense of purpose no matter how small it may be. Get you excited and help setting a new priority to think about. Mine would be to decide what to cook before April ends in about 1 and a half day left.

Good luck to me! :-D


08:48pm Update
Just had dinner. Guess what? Nasi Lemak. So, that's the recipe for April. Barely made it eh. It's my first time cooking Nasi Lemak so there's still a room for improvement. Plus, the ingredients was not really complete since I couldn't find it all at the nearby market and I was kind of tired after a long day at the office but I did try my best. The sambal was a bit too spicy and oily but the rice was yummy. I couldn't find any Pandan  at the shop (although I did take a peek at the neighbour's lawn and saw a bunch of it planted there but I was too shy to ask for one) so I just put some lemon grass and slices of onion into the rice mixed with coconut milk. It was actually quite good for first timer. I'm going to try cooking it again and i'll make sure it's a finger-lickin'-good one this time. :)

I'm a Vampire.

My health screening result is out today. Surprisingly, the cholesterol level is fine regardless of the many lemak berkrim that I have been gaining lately. The only concern is on the Haematology result which shows many Low sign and the doctor advised me to do further check on serum ferritin analysis.

I have known for quite some time that I have a low Hb everytime I went to any blood donation campaign. Today is a proof enough for me to be considering taking care of my Iron intake seriously.

This is what my colleague said to me after peeking at my blood result.

"That's why you always look pale. You should eat mo spanish", he said. Which I figure out quickly enough that he actually mean spinach.

The doctor advised on supplementary which have high Iron and B12. I guess I should also make cereal and oat my daily breakfast from now on. And of course not forgetting the spanish.

Some of the signs & effects of iron deficiency are:
- always feeling tired and weak
- difficulty maintaining body temperature
- decrease in immune function

Tannins that are found in tea decrease absorption of iron which means I have to stop my habit of drinking tea while having my meal. Sigh.

Kellogg's Corn Flakes for tomorrow then.

Told you I'm a vampire.

Sing It Like You Mean It.

That I think would be a very good advice for those who want to perform and sing.

Actually, I've been listening to the songs in my playlist and heard some of the song that I've always dreamt of singing in a show, if I ever get the chance again. :)

Here's some of the songs.

1) Tina Arena - Burn
2 ) Maria Mena - Just Hold Me
3) Meredith Brooks - Bitch
4) Anastacia - Left Outside Alone
5) Lady Antebellum - Need You Now
6) Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten
7) Norah Jones - What Am I To You
8) Tracy Chapman - Give Me One Reason
9) Stacia Orico - There's Gotta Be More To Life
10) The Pretenders - I'll Stand By You
11) Bonnie Raitt - I Can't Make You Love Me
12) Avril Lavigne - Innocence
13) Rufus Wainwright -Hallelujah
14) Pink - Just Like A Pill
15) Duffy - Warwick Avenue
16) Leona Lewis - Run
17) LeAnn Rimes - The Right Kind of Wrong

.... and the list goes on and on. There are many songs but I'm putting only a few here or I'll never stop. :)

By the way, for some reason I'd really really like to sing Gallery by Mario Vasquez just because I think the song is so damn catchy. But I guess it would be really hard to pull that off since I'm no Ne-Yo nor Bruno Mars.

Apparently Unaffected

If I liked rejection, I'd audition.

Maria Mena - Just Hold Me Lyrics
Comfortable as I am
I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are
You count the days

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know

And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
still care

You say you see the light now
At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn't matter
I wish I didn't give you all

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know

And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I think I did have good days

And why(why) can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

Wtf

I finally lost it.

They said my voice can be heard as far as the last desk about 100m away from the meeting room.

The thing is, it's just hard for me to believe how some people can be such an asshole. They say everyone has their limit. Just now was mine.

It takes almost all of my self-control to refrain from telling them to just go fuck themselves.

Tattooed Girl

I know it has been a while since the last time I updated this blog. Been staring too long at the stone basin looking for a lost memory. 

It was when the leprechaun came and told me that the tattooed girl is coming back soon that I pulled back into reality and began to breath fresh air again.

I wish it was that fancy. It's not. But at least the excuse is creative. 

What triggered me to finally make an entry was because I heard that a new Hollywood remake of 'The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo' which was initially done in Swedish is on the way and that they are looking for a girl to play Lisbeth Salander. Not that I dream of auditioning. I am just interested in who will play the girl diagnosed with Asperger syndrome and a genius hacker blessed with a photographic memory in that new film.

The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo is the first book of the Millennium Trilogy and the most interesting-page-turning book to me personally. Well, actually to be honest I have only read up until the second book - The Girl Who Played With Fire and looking forward to reading the third one - The Girl Who Kicked The Hornets' Nest. I have yet to make a review on that one. The author, Stieg Larsson died at the age of 50 on 2004 and the first book was published a year later.

The initial movie in Swedish was played by Noomi Rapace as Salander and Michael Nyqvist as Mikael Blomkvist. And it failed to meet my expectations. As usual, I was anticipating an exciting and thrilling movie since the book was damn good but it was really a let down. The acting didn't manage to impress me and Rapace was just not how I imagined Salander to be in real person. There are many interesting scene that can be extracted from the book but somehow I was so bored I watch it halfway and went to sleep.

So I am ready to not expecting too much on this Hollywood remake. At least, I hope it would be bearable to watch until the end.

Now the exciting part is to see who's going to take the role of Lisbeth Salander this time. It was reported on the news that Kristen Stewart of Twilight is auditioning for the role. I hope it's not her. She's pretty and everything but I don't think she'll do Salander the justice she deserve.

Ellen Page who starred Juno was also on the poll of who'll be the tattooed girl and I think she's very good in acting but she's just...too cute.

I prefer Katherine Moennig in terms of the face and attitude but I'm not so sure about her acting as I only saw her briefly in Everyone's Fine.  

Natalie Portman? Too pretty for my image of Salander in my head. The girl should be extremely skinny and plain enough to play someone who's lacking social skill but at the same time should have the vibe of being mysterious.

Cote de Pablo  is just okay. Nothing much I can say because I'm not familiar with her work.

The one who will be playing Lisbeth Slander should be in her mid 20s, very 'emo' type of girl, around 150cm height and extremely skinny. Whoever win that role, I hope she will do a good job at it. It really is the main character.

Well, that's the name I saw popping up on the web. Who do you think should be the girl?

If you haven't read the book, here's the link for you to buy one. :)

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (Vintage)