Zee Avi - Bitter Heart

Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,
Children spinning around till they fall down down down.
I wait for you: it's been two hours now,
You're still somewhere in town,
Your dinners getting cold.
I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.
And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday,
So tell me whats her name.
Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.


I love it. So very much.

RIP MJ

I know. I know. It's just so sad. Damn. :(

I'm one of those million fans of Michael Jackson and the news of his death is so unbelieavable that i keep asking myself & around whether it's true or not. Regardless of all the freaky & weird rumors & allegations about him that had happen before, he's undeniably one of the greatest pop star of all time. All i care about is his music & contribution to the industry, never mind his personal life.

You can by now read many epitaph & heard marathon back to back of MJ hits being played around. Like what Daniel wrote in his blog, I also wish i can make one hell of a post to dedicate to MJ as a mark of respect. But i guess i just have to let the expert do their job on that. So all that is left for me to say is, may your soul rest in peace MJ. I'll be your greatest fan, in my own way, forever.

And I will also always remember waking up from sleep today and the first thing i heard was that Michael Jackson died. :(


"He was perhaps the most exciting performer of his generation, known for his backward-gliding moonwalk, his feverish, crotch-grabbing dance moves and his high-pitched singing, punctuated with squeals and titters. His single sequined glove, tight, military-style jacket and aviator sunglasses were trademarks, as was his ever-changing, surgically altered appearance.

Billboard magazine editorial director Bill Werde said Jackson's star power was unmatched. "The world just lost the biggest pop star in history, no matter how you cut it," Werde said. "He's literally the king of pop. Jackson ranked alongside Elvis Presley and the Beatles as the biggest pop sensations of all time. - Yahoo news.


I'll leave you all with this clip as a tribute to MJ...enjoy.

Reflection

So, it's been half a year.

A few days before, i saw Alex's shout out in facebook "it's half year of 2009, reflection...reflection" and i could not help from wanting to reflect my own life, days & moments so far.

On January this year, i was so eager to list down my new year resolution & i could not wait to see if i can make it or not. I believe i have set out quite a resonable lists & i did not doubt that it's achieveable, at least some of it.


Come to think of it now, i have actually make a numbers of points on that lists materialize. I have lost a few pounds (maybe), i have not been into extravagant shopping & i have buy & read more books compare to last year (only that i've been less at home these days) and to put more laugh, love & smile to my life have not been that hard to do as i am currently indulging in a new & fresh relationship. Well, there's been the usual it-hurt-and-i'm-confuse situation but i guess that's basically mean i'm living a life so it's not so much of a problem right now. ;)

The only thing that keep sneaking into my mind is the need to be sure of what i want in my life and those sort of things. I'm dealing with this right now and i hope eventually, it will all be clear. It better be. I'm kind of burnt-out with all the things & stuff in my head.

"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself." - George Bernard Shaw

I was so pissed off yesterday.

I was sad & blue last night.

I was restless this morning.

I felt empty after that.

I was so worried an hour ago.

Now I'm annoyed.

Damn it.

Nothing really...

Every situation has a way of repeating itself. Sometimes it comes with a mask and we don't realize what's happening until you begin to feel the old familiar feelings. Déjà vu.

It's up to you to decide what you want to do about it. To embrace the fact that's all you may get from life itself, or look the other way around & hope something else may happen if you wait long enough.

Everyone have different priority, focus & expectation in life.

Some would want to stay & see whether they can make it to the end, so they make it clear & know exactly what they want.

And some would linger around & do not commit, so what may or may not happen in the end, they can decide to want it to effect them or not.

The question is, did you interpret the meaning of every situation correctly & make your due diligence whether it is as it is before or not?

Types of Men That Women Should AVOID Dating!

#1 - A man who says I LOVE YOU too soon

In a word, needy and kind of creepy. It's really impossible to truly love someone until you've spent a lot of time with them. Lust is instant. So while I lust you is okay, I love you starts a ball rolling that you can't stop. Relationships take time, save the "L" word for when you are ready to take the next step.

#2 - A man who is in a current relationship or marriage
Girls, don't bank on the fact that he will leave his wife or girlfriend for us. Sometimes, he just wants to have the best of both worlds. After all, it's not a good idea to be someone's third party too.

#3 - A man who thinks he is so much more better than you or anyone else


Have you met him? He's all about feeling superior. Nobody is good enough for him. He has a laser sharp tongue and can shred anything in sight until it lies in tatters in front of him.

Even if he has elite education and a well-paid job, it does not mean he is always right! Dump him if he treats you condescendingly every time. You are entitled to your own opinions and decisions. After spending enough time with this guy, you will grow to despise the human race as he does, and crawl around feeling unworthy. Throw him away like you would a mold-filled potato :-D


#4 - A man who is super stingy or super calculative or the cheapskate
Girlfriends, we don’t have to be labeled a “gold digger” to recognize the difference between a man who’s frugal and one who’s downright miserly. We know the type: he brings coupons to the first date or parks 17 blocks away to avoid paying a $4 valet (or both). Ah yes, this “avoidable” is known as the cheapskate. Now, there is nothing wrong with a guy shopping for the best deal and being conservative with his money. However, if every activity is all about finding the stingiest alternative, nothing is ever fun. Repeatedly counting change, stealing food from work and rationing toilet paper may seem quirky or sweet at first, but this behavior is indicative of future headaches. When it comes down to it, this guy has control issues.

#5 - A man who seems exceptionally busy
You can't get hold of him, even by phone. He is not available most of the time. Whenever you call, he says he will call back. It is sufficient to believe that this man is either not very interested in you or he is seeing someone else. So go find someone else too, girl!

#6 - A man Who refuses to grow up

Dude, get a job and move out whatever it takes. Don't be a loser. Even if she can sleep over, she will grow tired of your lack of independence, motivation, and ambition. She would rather have champagne on the beach then dinner with your folks.

#7 - Men who are CRUEL
There is nothing in the world as ugly or as damaging as a cruel man. For some reason, there are men out there who take only joy in seeing someone in pain (I don't mean like in a dull headache kind of pain - I mean like a big kick in the nuts pain).

People say that it's a power thing, but I know it's a sickness thing. It's sick to be us if we are with someone like him.

Don't be distracted by the sexy grin or the bulging pecs (or bulging other stuff) on the outside. Look at the inside. Fire is beautiful but it hurts when you get burned. Stay away from these creeps as if your life depended on it, as it surely does.


#8 - A man who loves sports way too much
There's a fine line between a great guy who loves sports and the raging maniac that loves sports way too much. How can you love sports TOO much? men would ask in befuddlement. For most women, it's obvious. A guy loves sport too much when they would rather watch a game than spend time with us.

I realize that ALL men fall into this category after several months of knowing us, but they will occasionally submit their whipped butts to taking us out, just to stop our fussing. But the sport fanatic won't care that the house is falling apart, that the baby is crying or that we haven't been out of the house in 4 months. All he'll want is a beer, a TV and "some peace". They are hard to tell apart from the normal healthy male but look out for the signs of obsession, or we'll be stuck watching every lame game the sports channel has to offer and feeding his burping buddies as our friends go out to dinner and to see the hottest new movie every weekend.

#9 - The roving eye guy
This guy is constantly looking at every female but the one he’s with. He ogles the barista, the woman at the bus stop, even his buddy’s wife, making his date feel inferior and unattractive. Most of us will agree that men are inclined to admire beautiful women (and vice versa) but let’s face it: Recognizing beauty and disrespectfully rubbernecking are two completely different things. Constantly competing for your partner’s attention gets old really fast. If a man’s smarmy smile, inappropriate comments/gestures and keen interest in others are too distracting to the relationship, women pick up and move along. Even the most confident women want their men to treat them like they are the only one in the room.


#10 - A negative guy
We know the type; for him nothing we do is good enough. We're too stupid, we're too fat, we're too mouthy. Avoid negative guy who can find everything wrong with everyone and everything that means something to you in your life. Send Mr. Negative packing if you see him coming your way. Don’t allow someone to delegate who is good and not good in your life.

#11 - A man who thinks only with their "sticks"
Well, as we well know, the streets to the courthouse are littered with broken marriages caused by men who think with their sticks and not their brains. They see something they want to poke and it does not matter if they have Halle Berry, Christy Brinkley or Pam Anderson, and their 2 kids, 3 dogs, and 4 fishes waiting at home. These men will do what they know they shouldn't do, go get the forbidden poke.

It does not matter that you are the hottest thing since freshly baked pie, a man like this is going to give you a few diseases and mess up publicly right when you are being voted "Happiest Couple" at the Lodge. You know he's the type to cheat as that's how you got him from his first wife. Know that you got a weasel in your arms, and throw him away before he puts you on the front pages of the daily newspaper for murder.


#12 - A man who can't stop talking about his ex
GENTLEMEN, it's boring, it's unromantic, it shows you are not over your last relationship. Nothing is more of a turn off than your past love experiences gone bad. Save the war stories for your buddies at the bar and show your new date that you are interested in her.

#13 - The man who is never proud of our accomplishments
Do not allow someone who does not support us and our hard work hurt us. Girlfriends, we deserve to have someone who is proud of our accomplishments and wants to support us :-)

#14 - A man who keeps in touch with all his Ex's
Again, gentlemen.. :) Dump the ex's as friends if you want a new relationship. It's a total turn off and shows you may have some separation anxiety by needing to surround yourself with women you have slept with. Most woman won't put up with that scenario for long either.


P/S Thanks to Anna who post this on her Facebook notes. There are some of the points that catch my attention so i thought i'll share this with you. Of course i have my own turn-off-points but just in case i never get around to post that out, this would be my general idea of the types of men we girls should avoid, whenever possible. :)

Powder Blue

Everyone deserve a second chance. It may come to us in a different way, all is up to us whether to realize it and act on it or not. Sometimes our hardship & sorrow cloud what's been offered to us & we decided to give up. Don't.

I have always love talks, books, songs & movies about challenges in our life & inspirational stories. The things that can motivate us to keep going is actually just a little reminder every now & then.

Among all the movies that i have watch, one of my favorite motivational stories which i can vividly remember until now would be the 'Pay It Forward' which i watch about 3 years ago. Today at the office, i saw one movie in my colleague's folder in title 'Powder Blue' & out of curiosity of the unusual title, i downloaded it. Now i have just finish watching it and i must say, i can jot it down in my favorite lists.


As in one of the caption of that movie 'Every Life Has A Breaking Point'. I hope i find mine.

On a lighter note though, one cannot miss the scene everybody loves in any movie. The nude scene. ;) But it's not the less clothing that really gets me (although Jessica Biel is one very hot-sexy b**h :D) but really on Jessica's dancing at the stripper stage especially the pole dance. Owh i love the sliding-up-side-down pole dance. My mouth was wide open half through it. I never knew she could move like that. ;)


So...all in all, i say go watch this movie & have a good time.
Nite peeps. :)

Girl1: "There should be a pill that you can take to make love go away."

Girl2: "Why would you wanna make love go away?
It's hard enough to find it in the first place."

June

I don't want to be a walking contradiction.

Beautiful Girl

I was walking into the hallway door for usual scanning routine this morning & someone catch up behind me & sing 'beautiful girl'.....from the movie 200 Pounds Beauty, a Korean movie. It was a nice way to start the day & i'm smiling from ear to ear. Not to the fact that the guy sang the song to me indicating that i'm beautiful but because of the small thing as such which can make me in a very good mood so early in the morning. :)

Up to my office & to my desk, i was humming the song in small voice. ;)


By the way, this is a nice & good movie actually. I cried watching it. syyyy.... :D
The sexy Kim Ah Jung has actually went under the knife of plastic surgery just like her role in the movie. No wonder she's so natural & very good in acting it out because she's really been there. People were criticizing, saying bad things to her about the whole plastic surgery thing.

But i don't care. I still love her because she's so talented & she actually can act & sing very well.

200 Pounds Beauty - Beautiful Girl - Kim Ah Joong