Wild Random Jokes For The Day

There's always something...that will makes me feel unhappy. It's not fair. All I can do is to cry silently. What did I ever do to you to deserve this? I'd rather be alone than to be made to feel like this. Nothing I ever say makes any difference anyway.

World On A String

Yep. I've got the world on a string. [smile.and.smile.again]

It was on one fine Sunday afternoon. Three friends were drinking beer. We were a bit drunk I guess. Me and Jew were talking about our last year's plan which was him teaching me to play guitar. Then Wel said to me, "Let's go and buy your guitar." And as usual, my reply to that was, "I'll buy it at the end of this month [which already been months]. I don't really have a budget for that now."

The next thing I knew, I was already on my way to the guitar shop. That was actually very nice. The spontaneity and all. I owe you this one Wel. Thank you so much! [and.smile.again] Although, I could not really have much sense on picking up my best guitar choice due to dizziness. Haha.

And, as you may already guess, I now have a guitar. My very first one. [smile.and.smile.again] I am very much excited about it. After work today, Jew already teach me a few techniques and I'm going to master that myself before I go and ask him another new skill to show off learn.

I'm going to be quite occupied on weekdays from now on. Everyday after work, it's a guitar lesson, jogging and going back to school which is opening up the Mechanics of Materials because I am much aware of my weak Mechanical basic and I'm making an effort to be better. I should win the best employee or something this year. Kidding! And I also need to teach Jew the Solidwork design which we agreed upon in exchange to him teaching me to be a musician. Nice. Haha

Ok. Enough writing for now. I want to do a bit of virtual farming and then strum a little. A bit of G and C to life...then off to sleep.

Everything and everyone. Thank you.

When Necessary

Yes. You don't have to finish you medicine just because you feel like it. If the pain stop, give it maybe 1 or 2 days then don't take anymore of those pills. I don't really have a concrete reason. I just don't like the thought of it. It's not natural and definitely not organic. Haha

Anyway, I woke up this morning feeling like my head weigh a hundred pound and after settling a few task at the office, I took a half day off for my body to rest and chase away those viruses. I'm suppose to feel drowsy now. I got like 5 packet of different medicine prescribe by the doctor today. Maybe I should have crunch it to make the effect way faster? Urghh...Maybe not.

One thing I know that I should do is to stop thinking too much. Just let it all go fuck itself away and I'll be ok.

I'm getting myself ready for the sleepiness now. Haha

And yeah, I'm grateful for the doctor for giving me the medicine and let me take a day off. Thank you very much.

Nitey nitey everyone.

Words...they tend to confuse you.

I'm in my room, feeling at peace but also feels quite 'new'. Like I'm still getting used to it..but here, I can look at every single thing around and nothing else to be reminded of. Just me and my stuff.

I plan to do a bit more decluttering and maybe to change the bedroom setting to avoid knocking over the edge of the bed. But that would take quite some time and energy so maybe tomorrow. Or the day after. I haven't decide.

Mcm ok jg kalau kaler merah kan. :-D

I should sleep early tonight. I thought of finishing a book or watch the movie 'The Three Idiots' my colleague gave me this morning but now I don't really feel like it. Just thinking of hitting the sack.

Maybe I should meditate a bit...clearing my mind off those things that are unnecessary and then go to bed and wake up fresh and happy tomorrow.

I will do that.

And, I'm grateful for being me. With all the imperfection and flaws.

I haven't got my gratitude journal so...that's why. :)

Good night everyone.

Why.

Do you know the feeling you have when you are trying to blog but you just keeps on deleting one sentence to another because no matter how personal your blog might be...it is still public and accessible and that no matter how much you want to put some things into words, you don't really want to just let go and offer your vulnerability side in one silver platter... That you know the stories and words are flowing inside your mind... That the stories isn't quite finish... and yet you push the 'publish post' button... separating those that can be shared and those that you just want to keep it to yourself. No matter how much you actually want to let it out.

That's what happen every time.

Why.

WikiHow

Keep a gratitude journal. Challenge yourself to write down five new things every day that you're grateful for. It'll be easy in the beginning, but soon you'll discover that you have to increase your awareness to keep on.

Try to focus on the positive, instead. Be thankful for what you have. And remember that if someone is going to hurt you, there's nothing you can do to stop it anyway. No amount of nagging, monitoring, accusation, snooping, or guarding will prevent you from being hurt. If you believe in someone, believe in them completely; give them all your trust. The benefit of the doubt is essential for any relationship to work. - WikiHow.

To Try, To Love, Be Understanding & Believe in Life.

Let me start the post in 2011 with this song from one of my favourite singer, Delta Goodrem. After all, this year is going to be as awesome as this song. I have no doubt about that.


"Born To Try"

Doing everything that I believe in
Going by the rules that I've been taught
More understanding of what's around me
And protected from the walls of love

All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

No point in talking what you should have been
And regretting the things that went on
Life's full of mistakes, destinies and fate
Remove the clouds look at the bigger picture

And all that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

All that you see is me
All I truly believe
All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try

I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try...