My pick for the night

"I'm sitting here alone up in my room,
And thinking about the times that we've been through (oh my love)
I'm looking at a picture in my hand,
Trying my best to understand,
I really want to know what we did wrong,
With a love that felt so strong,
If only you were here tonight,
I know that we could make it right.

I don't know how to live without your love,
I was born to make you happy,
'Cause you're the only one within my heart,
I was born to make you happy,
Always and forever you and me,
That's the way our life should be,
I don't know how to live without your love,
I was born to make you happy.

I know I've been a fool since you've been gone,
I'd better give it up and carry on (oh my love)
'Cause living in a dream of you and me,
Is not the way my life should be,
I don't want to cry a tear for you,
So forgive me if i do,
If only you were here tonight,
I know that we could make it right."


Heard this song on the radio... Love Britney back when she's younger. Good night everyone. Sleep tight and sweet dreams.

What's in my red book?

I know I'm not a very productive employee today. All i did so far was surf and surf and surf i might have reach the middle of the ocean by the looks of it. I sure did some of the work needed to be done urgently but apart from that, i didn't make the effort of trying to learn or master anything in my free time. I just don't have it in me. Excuse. I know. Darn it.

I opened my small red book to jot a new word for the day and i saw that on the final pages of the book were a few short notes that I've jot down before. It must be from one of those days that ideas came rushing into my mind and i just have to write it down so that i won't forget it but sadly, i never get around to use it for an article. A bit of a lick and a promise. It's kind of brilliant tho, the ideas of course and i wonder what was i thinking then? It's something to do about family relation, abundance love, gratitude and personal belief. Whoa~ I amaze myself sometimes.

Now I'm eating a piece of butter cake with teensy-weensy raisins on it. :)

Russian Roulette vs Crawl

Rihanna

Take a breath, take it deep,
Calm yourself, he says to me,
If you play, you play for keeps,
Take a gun, and count to three,
I'm sweating now, moving slow,
No time to think, my turn to go.

And you can see my heart beating,
You can see it through my chest,
And I'm terrified but I'm not leaving,
Know that i must pass this test,
So just pull the trigger.

Say a prayer to yourself,
He says close your eyes,
Sometimes it helps,
And then i get a scary thought,
That he's here means he's never lost.

As my life flashes before my eyes,
I'm wondering will i ever see another sunrise?
So many won't get the chance to say goodbye,
But it's too late to pick up the value of my life.

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Chris

Everybody sees it's you,
I'm the one that lost the view,
Everybody says we're through,
I hope you haven't said it too.

So where,
Do we go from here,
With all this fear in our eyes,
And where,
Can love take us now,
We've been so far down,
We can still touch the sky.

If we crawl,
Till we can walk again,
Then we'll run,
Until we're strong enough to jump.
Then we'll fly,
Until there is no wind,
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl,
Back to love, Yeah
Back to love, Yeah.

Why did i change the pace,
Hearts were never meant to race,
I always felt the need for space,
But now i can't reach your face,
So where,
Are you standing now,
Are you in the crowd of my vouch,
Love, can you see my hand?
I need one more chance,
We can still have it all.

Everybody see's it's you,
Well i never wanna lose that view.

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Both says it through their music. Whether it's just a try to get back to the fan on Chris's side, or RiRi trying to channel her feelings on coping up, i would not know but if i were to vote, hmmmm...both songs are catchy and i like it but maybe i tend to choose Russian Roulette over Crawl. ;)

Btw, notice how the title of the songs is the same as their initials? And to dramatize the Russian Roulette, there's this sound of after-crying-breathing (pardon my silly words here. My vocab is not always functioning. How do you translate teresak-esak in English anyway?)and a shoot at the end of the song...it sure makes the song interesting but one can't help wondering.....well i guess i'll let you connect the dots here. [eerie sound playing in the background~muahaha]

On Crawl tho, i kind of like the lyrics and of course Chris's vocal is great as usual. :D

What my tea bag tells me

As a very avid tea lover, i would love it more if this is how my tea bag looks like. Each bag with different words of wisdom printed on their tiny piece of paper dangling over the cup. How much more perfect it could be, other than sipping a nice hot tea while thinking over those proverbs and looking forward to the next different one i get for tomorrow's tea break.

hmm...very nice indeed.

This is us...

I'm like a sunday morning, you're like friday night
And when we kiss, the perfect weekend -no rain in sight
When i'm feeling incomplete, you're my missing piece
And when you need your breathe taken away i'll be your thief

From the start to the end
We don't need to pretend
That we're perfect all the time
'cause we know what we have
Thru the good the bad
It's a strength that you can't deny...

I don't need to find a million reasons why
This is us, this is us, this is how we love
Some ways we're different
But together we're so right
This is us, this is us
And this is how we love

And even if we fall apart, we'll never feel alone
Just like the moon starts rising, our hearts bring us home
We can always find each other like the northern star
Doesn't matter where we are, i'm looking, going far

From the start to the end
We don't need to pretend
That we're perfect all the time
'cause we know what we have
Thru the good the bad
It's a strength that you can't deny...

I don't need to find a million reasons why
This is us, this is us, this is how we love
Some ways we're different
But together we're so right
This is us, this is us
And that's the way we love

We don't always see eye to eye
You must see a million colours
I just see it black and white
(ain't no way we could get much higher)
'cause when we touch it feels like fire
We both know how good this feels
Yes we do... baby... because...

This is you
This is me
This is us

I don't need to find a million reasons why
This is us, this is us, this is how we love
Some ways we're different
But together we're so right
This is us, this is us
And this is how we love

This Is Us - Keyshia Cole

hmmm..... :)

cengeng?...for a reason.

People who are close to me will know that i am probably one of the most sensitive person in this world.

When someone scratched my car as if it's their new drawing paper last time, i didn't shed a single tear. Not even when i lost something, no matter how important it is.

Back in primary school, i didn't really have much money to spend over food and after that i was constantly worrying whenever it's time for a holiday at boarding school because i could not afford the ferry fee to come back... and i never cried at that too. Well maybe sometimes when i was so worried i could not make it but thanks to my strong and great mom, we always seem to get through that.

But i can't control my tears from flowing when someone close to me hurt my feelings. Friends...family...kids...loved ones...

I was always the first one to cry when mom got mad at me and my sister back when we were kids (sepa suruh jajal). Even now when mom and my sist were quarelling and yelling at each other terribly, it's me who cries first.

I don't know why i'm doing this, but i never want to let people be able to hurt me like that again.