Treading Water

My body aches all over. Especially on the lower back and at the triceps or is it biceps area.

That's what happen when you only physically stretch your body every once in a while. You tend to overarching your whole body. I think I should really change the swimming class to twice a week at least. I have only been going every Wednesday and by the time I have to swim again, my body muscle have all turn to fat and my birth breathing control is not going well with the instructor's advice to relax more inside the water. And of course it's pretty hard to relax when you need to remember which and which first-the hands, the legs or the head while at the same time making sure the technics is right (you can't really use the free style kicking but use the breaststrokes hands right? Even if it's waay easier) and also trying not to drink so much of the pool water. Eww.

Honestly, the only technics I'm so dying to learn is actually the Eggbeater Kick. The one you do when you want to stay afloat and smile and wave at people. That's the one. I can already swim to-and-fro but only without stopping. I wanted to be able to stop right in the middle of a pool and giggles and play water polo. I mean what happen if I suddenly get too tired and I can't really swing my hands to swim anymore? Am I supposed to just sink underwater and die?

Maybe I should go cycling again after work this evening. To tone up the legs intended to do kicking. I mean while I'm trying to get to the other side of the pool and also if I ever learn that egg kind of kick in near future.

If you have some tips, I'm all ears. Or maybe in this case, all eyes? But I really don't need to hear something like eating a lot of fish or getting one as a pet okay. I might as well eat a lot of birds since I love Peter Petrelli so maybe we can go flying together. Duh.

6 Facts For Yesterday & Today

1) I have been cycling about 30 minutes after work for two days now.
2) I can feel my legs starting to muscle up.
3) I went round and round the same driveway until my legs felt heavy from pedaling.
4) I turned around whenever i saw a dog about 50 metres away.
5) I am afraid of being kidnapped while cycling.
6) All dogs seem to be extra excited with people who ride a bicycle.

Beautiful Girl

I was walking into the hallway door for usual scanning routine this morning & someone catch up behind me & sing 'beautiful girl'.....from the movie 200 Pounds Beauty, a Korean movie. It was a nice way to start the day & i'm smiling from ear to ear. Not to the fact that the guy sang the song to me indicating that i'm beautiful but because of the small thing as such which can make me in a very good mood so early in the morning. :)

Up to my office & to my desk, i was humming the song in small voice. ;)


By the way, this is a nice & good movie actually. I cried watching it. syyyy.... :D
The sexy Kim Ah Jung has actually went under the knife of plastic surgery just like her role in the movie. No wonder she's so natural & very good in acting it out because she's really been there. People were criticizing, saying bad things to her about the whole plastic surgery thing.

But i don't care. I still love her because she's so talented & she actually can act & sing very well.

200 Pounds Beauty - Beautiful Girl - Kim Ah Joong

Logic

Feelings are not supposed to be logical. It would only make you more confuse & lost.

A lot of people ask me about my decision on being single all this while. Even my boss at work asked me about it. He could not comprehend the idea of someone as gorgeous & attractive [overkill. i know.] like me do not have someone special for quite a long time. Well, not really that long actually.

I'm sure many people will agree with me that after so many failed attempt at creating a happily-ever-after relationship, the feelings about the whole thing would eventually become stagnant in a sense of giving it the lowest priority in life. Most of the time, life is not just about being in love with someone [except your family]. And it's not just because of a bad past relationship either. Something that did not work out like how you want it should not necessarily viewed as a mistake or a bad thing. Things just happen sometimes. Either people simply have a change of heart or it's time for the other person to take on a new chapter in his/her life.

At one point, accumulate mix-feelings & the experience one had over the whole love-crush-heart break-infatuation-lust-vulnerable-stupidity thing will somehow make the person so over it that all he/she want to do is sit back & let life & time take over & decide everything. When you are ready, then you will. There's no need to push it or go looking for the 'thing' like some treasure hunt you used to participate in school & ended up settling for second best. To make do with what you have. Something you think you want but does not really sure if it's something mutual.

That is why i look at every encounter & moments with someone as a gift & my turn of sharing. Whether you realize it or not, each and every people that we get to meet help shape our mind, heart & life no matter how short the shared time is.

So, try never to look at people around you with just tiny regards but rather as an individual that contribute to your chain of energy, existence & happiness, which most of the time we never realize first hand but true anyway.

Last Nite & Today

It seems like i have a lot to share but can't seem to relate all the things together to make it a proper story... hahaha I'll try my best lah.

1. i went to Flare Bar & Restaurant last night and had a drinks with my friend Deon who came all the way from KL to do some work related thing here in Penang. It was also my first time to the bar which is owned by another friend, Sunny. It is in Batu Feringghi, a very nice area but it's a bit far from the bustling town so the crowd was not like if you go to Slippery Senorita or even Soho. But for me, the place is good, i did not get the chance of tasting the food yet as i arrived quite late & i actually took dinner earlier...but the music is great (also the bartender...hehe) & i had so much fun drinking & dancing & yes, pretending to be a lesbian. I do that. hahaha I wanna put more info here but i don't want to spoil the curiosity & suprise for my friends who've been planning to go there soon. Just one thing tho, i like the washroom. I couldn't help myself from smiling when i wash my hand...owh and you can choose too...;)

2. it was last year in one post...i think it's Vera who commented it, saying that i'm a type of girl that is not easily impressed or not easy to please. I was actually quite suprised because i never thought i'm like that. I mean maybe sometimes i get cerewet...we all do..but i thought it's pretty easy to make me laugh or to suprise me in anything. But then, after that.. i kind of sense it and realize that i am like that sometimes...well ok maybe most of the time. I do not think that it's a bad character tho..don't worry Vera...nothing personal. just bussiness [tiba2 ba kn] hahaha Still i'm not going to elaborate on which part it is that is hard to please lah..hehe The relevant of this revelation to this post is that, it is hard sometimes when you get to a situation of disagreement. You just don't think that something was THAT great but obviously some people did & make such a fuss about it like there is no other thing and hate you because you don't & then made remarks like...yeah, that's how you are...you think everyone is a waste of space. Gosh! It's really annoying but i did not say or do anything for the sake of friendship.

3. I'm waiting for a call from the supplier to send the sample part for my approval now & i'm still hangover & i want to sleep.

4. I'm going to the campus later today & maybe stay over for the night. My friends been nagging me about it..they scarcely ever had a glimpse of me nowadays...that's what they told me. Thought of menyimpang pegi main basketball on my way down there..hehe

The End.

New

At last...

13 Dec 08, 11am - up from bed, started cleaning & packing.
13 Dec 08, 1pm - still cleaning & packing.
13 Dec 08, 3pm - start moving things to the new house trip by trip.
13 Dec 08, 7pm - 3rd trip...
13 Dec 08, 11pm - Final trip for the day.
13 Dec 08, 11.30pm - started cleaning the new room, unpacked.
14 Dec 08 1.00am - new room is fit to stay in for the night.
14 Dec 08, 1.30am - freshen up & went supper...stay a while for the ManU & Spurs match.
14 Dec 08, 2.30am - at new home & watch heroes ;)
14 Dec 08, 4.30am - did a small prayer for the new house & new room...read a chapter in the bible.
14 Dec 08, 4.45am - sleeping for the 1st time in new room & new house. felt different, uneasy. put the bible beside the pillow. sleep.
14 Dec 08, 10.00am - woke up. felt confuse & eyes blinking around the unfamiliar room. found out that it's the new house. silly me.
14 Dec 08, 11.30am - went to the workshop to settle/spray the scratched driver's car door. still sakit ati with the unknown stupid asshole who did it. the place closed. forgot that it's Sunday. shit. went for lunch instead.
14 Dec 08, 12.30pm - again, went to the old house, finish all the packing & emptying the house. cleaning again.
14 Dec 08, 2.45pm - back at the new house. sat and rest in front of the house. at the road side actually. take a puff & sighing a relief over the finish packing & moving. all the unpacking & cleaning for the new house can wait.
14 Dec, 3.00pm - at the room, typing this post.

bye bye house... ;)

That's how my Saturday & Sunday are filled with. So damn tired & muscle aching all over...but it's kind of a workout i guess cos my arms & thigh feel like muscling up...toned. hehe

now...

So..bye bye to the old house that i lived in for only 2months, and welcome to myself to the new house that i hope would last for as long as i'm still working around here. This new house is smaller than the previous one, no balcony outside my room, my room a bit smaller but at least there are not much hassle with the owner, this n that probs like it did with the old one. I have a good feeling about this. ;) i hope i'm right this time.

The end.

Lessons For a Lifetime..

p/s Chelsea win big!! 5-0 for cheese sake! he he

Yesterday & Today

la la la.....ha ha ha...[grinning shamelessly]

Nothing than this...Chelsea beating up Hull City 3-0 can make my morning any better..After the frustration & sadness for the last match...now i can bring back a big smile on my face. he he he [still grinning like a cat!]

Anyway, a bit moment sharing with what i've been up to yesterday. Went to the Tambun Herbal Sauna for a healthy exercise & calorie burning. [wink2] Then, went to eat seafood at the Floating Seafood Restaurant to celebrate Henry's birthday...the food was yummy & delicious..followed by a few bottles of beer to close the eventfull night..haha so much for my sauna-calorie-fats burning!

Then today, i'm on training for the ISO/TS16949 understanding...gonna hurry up for this post. The training start at 9am!

Later peeps...;)

Happy

No one is born happy. But all of us are born with the ability to create happiness.

Went picnic at Batu Feringghi yesterday. It was fun & healthy until the time to go back. I had a headache again. [sigh]

Peace to the world...

The picnic went surprisingly well tho. I got just a slight brown healthy shade of tan. Lying over the mat on the sand...thinking about things...this..and that...and finally decide to let it all go at that moment...so now, i'm quite empty & clear headed. [smile]

Walking back...

I don't quit or succumb easily for any reason before. I fight for it..even if some people told me it's not worth it.

But now...where does all of that gone to?
Maybe i'm tired of trying to figure out what's there for me...or if i'm in for anything...

"Happiness cannot come from without. It must come from within. It is not what we see and touch or that which others do for us which makes us happy; it is that which we think and feel and do, first for the other fellow and then for ourselves." - Helen Keller

p/s And to add to my blurry meaning of happiness, Chelsea lost for the first time to Liverpool last Sunday..and it's Home for goat sake!

The Girl & Mr A

I had an interesting conversation with Mr A at this time of day yesterday. Well it's more like a chatting really. ;)

"If you put a high hope on a girl then suddenly u want to stop doing that because maybe after some time, you found someone else..what do you think the girl would think of me?"

I was silent for a while.

"And i haven't said the 3 magic words. Don't worry."

Ok...again i was contemplating on how best to answer his questions.

"Instead of answering you, may i ask why do you need to stop? Which one do you actually like more?" I asked him.

"Well...honestly, i don't know." He typed after a few seconds.
"I like this one girl...and in terms of beauty...she really got it all..but this other one, i've been dying to tell her since decades ago of how much i like her but i never got the courage to do so..and now that i may have the chance to tell her, i have to decide between her & this girl i told you earlier."

I could not think of a suitable reply at first.

"Well...if you really think of what you want and about how you feel...i think you will know what to do..i mean which one to choose."

That was the answer i gave him. I knew it's not much of an answer but choosing was never easy so i didn't want to help him making the wrong one.

"The thing now is i'm a bit concerned of what the girls may think of me.....i just don't want to be labeled a player because i do have quite a bit of collection but i never actually declare anything to anyone..I was just taking time to understand each of the girls so that i know who is the right one." He typed with a smiley following closed after.

"Don't bother on what people may say about you. Or in this case..the other not chosen girls. Because at the end of the day, you are the one who want to be happy & necessary reject is required." I told him with a wink.

And we chat about it for quite some time................................................................................................ (i'll spare you the details you may not want to know...hehe)

Then we come to another interesting point of our conversation. Mr A was telling me that the real problem was that he's very choosy. And below is the criteria he would like on a girl. I was quite excited to wait till he gave all the details...(we girls do like to know what type of person a guy would generally interested to kan..hehe)

So i copy here the requirement for a girl for Mr A;-
1. Beautiful
2. Able to cook
3. Able to converse in mother tongue language
4. Loves children
5. Can make it feel so nervous saying the words (i was smiling on this part..hehe)
6. got magnetic impulse
7. (secret) haha...

And we talk about it which i also don't want to put into details here..;)....bla bla bla

Then he asked again what do i think of a 'collector guy'.
And i said, "If i know that the guy is still looking for the right one for him..then i guess it's just okay..i would not hold any grudges against him. It's his right to do even if he may hurt my feelings along the way because i've seen it coming. So whatever anyone decide, i won't blame or think bad of them. There's always reason you know. Be it bad or good."

"And what i may feel in between the relationship? Or maybe here it's what the other girls of yours may feel? I think they may feel insecure knowing that you have a lot of choices to consider. Not to mention if you are not really into them and they knew it...it will hurt actually."

I continue my preaching. [haha]

"Then they may feel angry with me for giving them false hope." Typed Mr A.

"Depends, but most probably they will think and feel that way. But if it's me...i don't think i will..i'll try to think of being in your shoes & i may even do the same thing...bukan lelaki sja ba yg mo pilih-memilih ni. But i give up quite fast lah..tu sja keburukan dia.."

"So..how if i keep things as it is for the time being? I mean untill someone give up..then i don't really have to choose?" Mr A typed in quickly.

"Then there's a tendency you'll lose someone good." Was my only reply.

"Yeah..that's right." Mr A answered me.


p/s cerita dia atas ada diubah sedikit kandungan nya utk melindungi tuan punya cerita..haha okay pkul 6.06 sda..buli balik rumah..hahaha oh ya..and to Mr A if you are reading this..i hope you'll not get angry with me for sharing this very interesting topic of yours k...hehe

Tray of tiredness

Sleeping late last night have drain my energy for today & i just can't wait to go back home but it also means another round of unpacking & cleaning...[sigh]

Luckily i'm only drawing easy stuff today...if it's anything else complicated design or a boring long list of part list, not to mention having a due date that says TOMORROW / URGENTLY / TODAY, i may get stressed & forced to curse everyone in the office...well at least silently.

Maybe i can smuggle this out after it is molded...[naughty2]

Drowsiness kills the cat...[yawn]

Bye...

This is going to be the last time i'm posting an entry here in this small room. The packing is almost 80% done & after this post, this pc would be the final item to go into the box...

I'm quite excited moving to a new house & new area...but also a bit worried if things are going to be okay at the new place. I am so tired now after the 3rd trip sending all the stuff to the new house...and i'm not really into making any new post but this just have to be done. The final moment. ;)

I have a lot of unpacking & cleaning stuff awaiting me after this so i better make this quick.

Goodbye my room & this house for i am going to a new one now...i'll still try to find a time to visit here but just incase i don't, be good to the new occupant of this room & i appreaciate you for giving me shelter for almost a year now...Don't be sad & change the wall to weathered old for the new living here ok...be good to them just like u've been good to me all this while..thanks Roomie & Housey...;)

Cap Ibu dan Anak

I had trouble sleeping lately...ntah apa jg sy fikir...mmm mcm c Joy dlu pun pernah post psl susah tdur juga.. i did get some sleep but it's not enough..i'll feel so tired at work & i started getting minor headache...i just don't want it to further turn into one of those nasty migraine...

So last night..i decided that i have to do something about it...after a few attempt of trying to sleep which failed, i open up the already packed belongings (fyi, going to move out to new house this weekend) looking for the special potion for sleepiness...haha and aha! found it! secure nicely at the bottom of the box..took it out...& gulp!...sikit sja ba..jgn susa..hehe

biar la sy jadi penagih ubat batuk ni..haha

Nda juga la sy terus tertdur...pusing2 lagi skijap...then tia tau bila tu..akhirnya! tetdur jg sy..yeay hehe

And i woke up late this morning....i rushed up getting ready...speed a bit driving..doning my make-up while the red lights on the road...fuhh then...i get at the office at 7.58...yeay...mission accomplished! haha

i just hope tonight i won't be needing the potion anymore lah...

Mau buat special exercise kali ni kan....hehe

No To ISA

"Claire.. hang ada masa, mai lobi amek bungkusan hang. Sat td sampai."

The lovely voice of the friendly receptionist greeted me on the phone. ;)
As i was not so busy these last few days, i decided not to wait & went to see what was waiting for me.

When i first saw the letters Firstclick Enterprise, i knew what inside of the parcel.
That was quick. I just ordered it on Tuesday! I got very excited & straightly opened it to see if it's the right size for me.

Then now just back from kena belanja makan oleh c billy sb dia baru beli kreta baru then masuk gaji 1st...hihi

The back of the shirt - No To ISA with Billy new car - Myvi (nda clear ba)

Zoom..hehe

Kenyang nya kena belanja...nyum2

Yeah...i am...

smile..peace...

Thanks Billy for the delicious dinner...sedap! lain kali belanja lagi k...hehe biar la gumuk asal kenyang! hehe

And guys....please support the movement against ISA & to free all the people that have been detained...buy the lovely t-shirt & wear it everywhere...;) Got 2 types of design...visit Malaysia Today for more info..;)

It's killing me

i had a nasty migraine since Friday and it was getting worse up until last night..i could not even get up from the bed the whole day & i keep going to the toilet to throw up...teda lagi org mau jaga tu..kesian..i wish i'm at home & mom would take care of me like a baby..hehe

This morning i force myself up & made breakfast & took a shower...now i'm typing this post telling the whole world that i'm still alive..ha ha

mimang kin panas jg la kalau kena migraine like twice a month...& every time i had it, i keep telling myself to stop all the unhealthy stuff that may trigger the headache at the 1st place...

Maybe i will lah..no more smoking..n drinking...[sorry la well]..hehe

The Love Guru

Here i am working on my supposedly one full week holiday...& it's Monday..so i get all the blues & the yellows..;p

i started sleepy...then by the time i finish my work, i'm totally sleep-ing..haha
but right now....i just finish watching The Love Guru (yeah. u're right. in the office) & i really find it hilarious...aahh...you should just watch it..;)

ya..watch him..haha

My fav part?....Guru Pitka & Rajneesh sings the 'More than words'...;p it's just funny...and also...Jessica Alba is not bad at all at dancing the Indian dance..well i know she's good & all at dancing but this is just different..so two thumbs up for her..;) ..plus it's very entertaining..(at least for me) ;)

and...my fav line...

"People may say bad things about you...but you must never say bad things about yourself." - Guru Pitka

p/s You guys may as well kiss Jessica's Canadian arse...hahaha that's what she said anyway..Damn! hahaha

Say it

"We have all met people who proudly proclaim 'I always say what i mean' or 'I always tell the truth'. Such utterances are warning signals. Because anyone who chooses always to be honest is abdicating from their responsibility as a fellow human being. They make it easy for themselves, because they have fixed norm with which to arrange their lives, whilst the world around them is entirely unprotected from the truth-teller. Life is sadly not so uncomplicated that we should in all circumstances say what we think, or how things really are." - Stefan Einhorn in The Art of Being Kind -

Lets say, a little girl comes up to you, shows you a drawing and tells you proudly that it is a picture of a cat. Do you tell her that it looks more like an exploding balloon?

Life is not so easy being independent after all. Some people just gladly rejoice in your mistake & make sure you won't miss all the i-told-u-so remarks or every single inch of the the false decision pointed right up on your face.

It dawned on me today at the office...when you see how people get so enthusiastic in proving that you have made a wrong choice & yet barely lift their head if you make something good.

Every day, we make decisions that affect other people, and we never exactly find out what most of the consequences of our actions are. So, we should throw up our hands and say that it doesn't matter what we do, because the consequences are in no way imaginable...

No. I don't think so. Be kind. It won't kill you.

Another Sunday

i woke up this morning feeling guilty...& when i felt like that..it'll last for quite some time..& it's a prob because it will affect my mood for the entire day..i wanted to be always cheery..sigh

but then..i cooked 'ayam masak kicap' for lunch [sedap..hehe]..then watching the movie 'p/s i love you' while eating...& it was not a very good idea because after the fourth time watching it, i still cried over almost every part of it..& laugh too..it was a very good movie..one of my fav.

Then i washed my 'white darling baby' & guess what...now i'm feeling much better already... maybe after this post i'll go have a hair trim & wash at the salon nearby..;) mmm..i'm feeling positive now...;)