Thank God It's Friday?

I woke up at 10am this morning then took a shower and sat down in front of the pc browsing through facebook. Made myself a cup of coffee and an instant maggie goreng for breakfast. I was halfway through My Start-Up Life pages when i got the call from the WAO or the WCC which stands for Women's Centre for Change in Penang about the email i sent them two days ago.

No. I'm not being abused or anything. Come to think of it. I am infact being abused. Emotionally.

It's just that i'm looking for other option beside the police report that i made against the physco guy that have been harrasing me emotionally all these years. It's a great relief actually. Ms Annie, the lady that took care of my case advice me to go and follow up the police report i made last year & to feedback to them the necessary actions that the police promise after that.

Talking to a woman in charge, is a nice change cause she understand how i feel when i told her that i'm worried that the police will not take me seriously & about the they-think-it's-funny remarks they said at me at the police station. Imagine being in a room full of policemen & i have to repeat the story over and over again every time a new police comes in and dreaded the words that may comes out from their mouth. Words like 'ala....lelaki ni mesti suka kat u punya.' 'ooo....cerita lama la ni.' And then go senyum2 looking at me. Damn it's taking all of my self control not to scream words back at them.

My second 'visit' to the police this afternoon did not really went well initially. The same look and remarks was being said and bla..bla...bla..sy malas mo go through that bikin sakit hati. Luckily one officer, maybe their chief at that station took over & talk things through with me. At least he offer some logic explanation of why they can not really do anything if there's no physical offense & at least he did some silent moment thinking hard of ways to tackle the problem & offer solution after solution that i can agree upon.

Bukan macam satu polis tu, 'ala..u dah kawin belum? haa...kalau u kawin mesti dia tak kacau dah lepas ni.' I was like, wtf.suruh org kawin pula cara dia mo suru selesai.wtf la btl2.

Now i only have to wait for just another 'hide and seek' with the weirdo & he can play 'police and thief' with the police.

On different story tho, i had my lunch in one of the shops nearby the housing area before making my way to the police station. I took white rice & the steamed ikan bawal and that cost me RM6. I don't know about you but i still feel that's expensive! Maybe i was getting so used to cooking at home & that home made steamed ikan bawal won't cost me that much so i was quite suprise that satu ekor ikan can cost me around RM5. Ridiculous. Reminds me of one article that made a sarcastic remarks on how fish seems to be the makanan orang kaya instead of chicken in a country such as ours. I actually called my mom about it and she laugh saying that in Sabah, that meal would have cost me around RM10. Now that would have me want to open my own rice+steamed ikan bawal shop & sell it for RM3 just like any other fish! Something as essential as food is not supposed to be expensive! Now go vote for me to be the menteri makanan.

Then i spent my remaining day cleaning up the house & putting up the curtain at the front door. Now you can't see me through the see through sliding door anymore. And the living room look much nicer. :) After that i tried my hands at menebas/mencabut rumput at the small lawn area but stopped when i realized that it will not look very nice if all the grass and weeds are gone. I wonder where are all the tukang rumput these days.

It's been a long day. 10.32pm now. Should i go to sleep? or go for a beer? or go out and about? Hmm...

The Ugly Truth

Gerard Butler.

He really does get mentioned more than any other actor in this blog. Lucky him. The Ugly Truth will only be shown in Malaysia on September this year, that's about a month more to wait.

I literally fell in love with him in 300 & from that moment on, everything-he-touched-turned-to-gold kind of experience for me whenever he's a cast in a movie. You should really watch him in 300, P/S I Love You, Nim's Island, Lara Croft and so on. His Scottish accent and the sexy vibe, not to forget that when he opens his mouth and sing, everything melts. [grin]

Men and their effect on me. sigh~ [still grinning]

Just Rambling

Not everything you plan goes on smoothly. That's why the advice is to always have a plan B or something of the sort.

There must be a reason why some things happen. Or maybe that's just our way of reasoning or just excuses for things that did not go as we intended it to.

Or maybe it was just bad judgement. How are we suppose to know what's coming right?

This Is Just To Say

It's been 3 days since Yasmin Ahmad passed away.

I was staring at her blog link the whole day and it feels weird to never see that link updated again. Her writings, movies & commercials never failed to amuse and entertain me and it's such a great loss that she has gone too soon at the age of 51.

Why is it that so many great people died this year! Sigh~

I remember that i have asked her permission to re-post a poem in one of her posting last time but i never get around to post it here. Now i leave you with this simple yet very cheeky poem and hope that it brings smile to you just like it did to me. Rest in peace Kak Yasmin.

I have eaten

the plums
that were in the icebox

and which
you were probably
saving
for breakfast.

Forgive me
they were delicious
so sweet
and so cold.

William Carlos Williams - This Is Just To Say

The Sweets & The Marbles

Just another one of those forwarded email story. :)

A boy and a girl were playing together. The boy had a collection of marbles. The girl had some sweets with her. The boy told the girl that he will give her all his marbles in exchange for her sweets. The girl agreed.


The boy kept the biggest and the most beautiful marble aside and gave the rest to the girl. The girl gave him all her sweets as she had promised. That night, the girl slept peacefully.. But the boy could not sleep as he kept wondering if the girl had hidden some sweets from him the way he had hidden his best marble.


Moral of the story: If you don't give hundred percent in a relationship, you'll always keep doubting if the other person has given his/her hundred percent. Give your hundred percent to everything you do and sleep peacefully... ;)

Up To No Good

I'm losing my mind.
What am i doing? Stop it you silly. Dammit.
Now that i hinted on it, things won't just go away like that.
What am i thinking!

5.41PM - The call was literally my damn farking first time ever hearing the voice & talk things together. I actually had quite a normal conversation. I actually laugh. I mean like really laugh. And i make jokes. yes. jokes. to a sort-of-complicated-stranger. Mom's gonna be pissed at me i guess. dammit. I don't even want to do that actually. This is not how i picture it to happen. I always have a vision of finally meeting up maybe at a place close to a death-bed or something. geez. Now i'm confuse. I got mix feelings and i'm not sure whether to hate it or like it or what.

Start of Something New

Everything change. And so does my blog layout. :)

Now, let me bore you with the early history of this blog first. On 13 July last year, i created this blog with the help of a very generous man, Wel. Thanks to him, i get to start blogging and make a proper presentation of the many ideas i have which always exhaust my friends in chats or in emails.

"Claire, pigi la kau buat blog."
"Buli jadi entry blog suda reply kau ni tau."

That was what my friends always told me back then because i tend to reply mails or chats with long and long sentences - sometimes a few paragraphs. And that's what prompt me to agree when Wel offered to set up this blog & help me with the technical stuff (template & all).

Today, i decide to change a bit of here and there, just to make a fresh start & motivate myself to blog more & to do what i love most. Rambling.

So, tadaa~ my new layout which i did it myself this time. ;) buli-buli tahan sja cantik la.

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Dammit. I'm so nervous and excited to wait to go watch Harry Potter: The Half Blood Prince tonight. 8.45pm, Gurney Plaza. I hope i can be there in time. Please please please whoever up there in turn for watching the road tonight, make it clear and the traffic light go all green whenever i pass.

I've already know the story by heart but the feeling of going to see the imagination turn to real picture is so exhilarating i'm a bit worried if it's going to set me in a high expectation which often makes me harder to please. But no matter...no matter... I'll take some of the Felix Felicis in hope of a good luck tonight. I think i brew it alright. Six month, yes?

Happy watching. :)

Catching Up

So far, i didn't see the physco around lurking behind the bushes anymore. ;) Thank God for that.

My sort of self-appointed brother Yie is in town today so we had lunch together & talk about many things & catching up with each other. He's working in KHell so we only get to meet up every once or twice a year. It feels good to sit down and tells stories about our own life so far & what both of us are up to. He's still into Volleyball these days, as to how we met in the first place and i envy him for that. Volleyball is one of my favourite sports & i could not remember the last time i played that game. Last 2 years maybe? sigh~

While i was trying to sleep & endure the headache due to flu last night, my friend Stella told me that his sister, Mellisa who happen to be one of my best friend since secondary school is going to Penang today. She'll be staying here for a week! Now i'm going to have another catching up to do. Mellisa is currently studying medic in Russia & only be going back to Malaysia every once or twice a year. The last time she's in Penang, we went to get our toes eaten (or bitten) by small fishes in one of the fish spa in New World Park. That experience... punya geli geleman. We promise to meet up tomorrow & i'm so looking forward to see her.

My nose are red & swollen & i'm holding a tissues in one hand & typing using the other hand. And outside...strong wind & heavy drops of rain indicate that i should take a nap now.

Going to watch a theatre later tonight. Dusta Pada Skala 1 hingga 10. Will be crapping again here after the weekend is over. Till then, adios.

SON OF A BITCH!

This is going to be a final warning to you bastard.

STOP FOLLOWING ME AROUND OR I SWEAR I'LL MAKE IT LEGAL TO SUE YOU OR LET THE POLICE FIND YOU!!!

Maybe you need a reminder? I still got the copy of the first police report against you. For your information, the police told me then that if you ever harras me like this again, i only have to let them know and they will take further action. I can't imagine why would you think that i'm not serious about this even after the police report. You must be really ill & mentally disturbed.

Seriously, this is really affecting me in the most terrible way possible. If you don't know the feeling, try imagining a physco person following you everyday, trying to get close to you & hiding in places where you can't spot them & all of a sudden they are already tailing you when you almost reach your home.

This has been going on for far too long & i really can't stand it anymore. I'm not ready to lose my mind yet. I know the bastard do read this blog so i'm directing this to YOU now so YOU better get this straight.

LEAVE ME ALONE YOU SICK MENTALLY RETARDED JERK!

And to those people who think that this simply amuse them & even make jokes out of it. You better keep your mouth shut. Maybe if it's your own sister or someone you love experience something like this then you'll understand.

Fuck.