Bila kana call pukul 3 pagi...

...ini lah kejadian dia. Terpaksa ada luahan nda tahan mau simpan nda dapat tidur.

Satu ja la sy mau bagitau kau. Jangan telampau jahat sama orang sebab apa pun yang berlaku akan jadi sama semua orang juga bergantung sama macamna gaya kau selama ini. You reap what you sow. Or the famous saying of what comes around will always comes back around. 

Cuma kadang-kadang, kalau pasal mentaliti, susah mau ubah sebab kalau sudah memang tembirang seja gaya sama cara berfikir memang tembirang seja la tu biar apa pun kau cakap. Ramai juga yang nda pandai sedar yang kalau dorang buat jahat sama orang sekarang, benda-benda begitu mesti (200% mesti) akan berlaku juga sama dorang tu lain kali. Telampau banyak sudah contoh berlaku mcmtu. Kalau kau masih nda tau, then you'll have your time soon. Bukan juga mau menyumpah orang tapi mcmtu seja baru orang sedar supaya jangan telampau jahat sama kasi betul sikit tu pikiran lah kalau buli.

Jangan ada tu fikiran yang kalau masa tu kau ada duit, 'ada-ada' la orang bilang, semua orang lain yang miskin kau mau pandang rendah. Atau kau mau sampai orang terfikir yang kau anggap dia mcm sampah-sampah seja teda guna-guna sebab apa harta pun teda jadi apa cakapan pun nda buli pakai. Kau gila kah? Ingat orang kaya seja punya cakapan buli guna kah?

Ni kali tia pa. Saya faham juga kenapa mau buat begini. Kasi chance la. Lain kali, bila sampai sudah masa dia semua benda mau bongkar kasi shove di muka kamurang, I wish to God saya ada sana masa tu. How dare you do all these things to the person I love most.

All the things she and I have been wanting to say to all of you. Especially her. Saya nda apa lagi, muda lagi baru 17 tahun jadi ada banyak lagi benda yang saya belum terasa semua. Tapi pigi buat benda begitu sama orang yang berpuluh-puluh tahun suda hidup di dunia. Macam nda cukup-cukup lagi kesusahan mau kasi rasa. Jaga la kamurang semua betul-betul nanti.

Sabar seja la dulu ah. Everything will always go right in the end.

SON OF A BITCH!

This is going to be a final warning to you bastard.

STOP FOLLOWING ME AROUND OR I SWEAR I'LL MAKE IT LEGAL TO SUE YOU OR LET THE POLICE FIND YOU!!!

Maybe you need a reminder? I still got the copy of the first police report against you. For your information, the police told me then that if you ever harras me like this again, i only have to let them know and they will take further action. I can't imagine why would you think that i'm not serious about this even after the police report. You must be really ill & mentally disturbed.

Seriously, this is really affecting me in the most terrible way possible. If you don't know the feeling, try imagining a physco person following you everyday, trying to get close to you & hiding in places where you can't spot them & all of a sudden they are already tailing you when you almost reach your home.

This has been going on for far too long & i really can't stand it anymore. I'm not ready to lose my mind yet. I know the bastard do read this blog so i'm directing this to YOU now so YOU better get this straight.

LEAVE ME ALONE YOU SICK MENTALLY RETARDED JERK!

And to those people who think that this simply amuse them & even make jokes out of it. You better keep your mouth shut. Maybe if it's your own sister or someone you love experience something like this then you'll understand.

Fuck.

You think i still care for a title now?

I'm so sick with the same old song that's been sung out for the past 6 years that i feel like killing people just for the fun of it.

My chest hurt so much i want to puke. I'm so frustrated i want to yell & get mad like a crazy bitch. Do any of you have any idea just how fucking hard it is to keep things to yourself & feeling helpless?

If i were there, i seriously think of slapping the sense out of her. She should be grateful i have not rule out the possibility of hating her forever. Because unlike some people, i think hatred only kill your inner self & left you to rot with bitterness in the end. But the way things are going on for so long till now, i may actually heading towards the pit of irreparable craziness & loathing.

Even falling in love with someone & listening to your favorite songs does not matter anymore. Who give you the right to feel so right when someone else is suffering anyway. When you think that no one can fault you for trying to live your life, think for a second of how long it will last before the dark clouds finally catching up.

If there's any evil out there wanting my soul in return for all this to stop, I will gladly sign the deal.

It's nothing to do with April Fool

I look fine outside..but no one knows how it is inside...
I'm not sure how long i can keep it & i don't want it to eat me out just like it did to them...

I wish i have a superhero's power...or angel's power to be exact...to get rid of bad things.
I wish you can get happiness like a click on your favorite channel.
I wish remorse is like breathing...you either live doing it..or died without it.

and i fucking hope wishes to be granted or else please get rid of that word.