24K Gold

I bought a set of eye mask supposedly filled with 24K active gold to beautify and invigorate (yeah~) the skin on the eye zone from a boutique a few months ago..when the lady explained on how to apply it, I remember I was nodding here and there with understanding.

I finally get myself to use it a minute ago..confirm lah lupa! and..the writing which looks to me like a direction of use, is in Chinese.

Harap-harap mata xbertukar jadi kuning keemasan esok. lol

Claire Bloomwood

Talk about shopping.

What i found out is that, two days of shopping is more than equal to a month of a car payment. And also that I'm a cup bigger. Err.

When i reach home, I took my time to get out from the car, listening to Elliot Yamin while scooping a McFlurry Berry hoping that each spoon will ease the guilt away.

Anyway, deep down I was actually grinning thinking about all the new stuff I bought while at the same time reminding myself to cut here and there this month. Hmm.

Moolah, Where Art Thou?

It has been quite some time since the last time I went shopping. I kind of miss it. Who doesn't right?

Sigh.

I am hoping my right palm would itch right now because that would mean that I am getting some extra money later. I really need a new pair of shoes and I have been eyeing this sexy transparent lingerie I saw a few times at the mall. Since then, I have been dying to get my hands on it. Anyway, you don't actually believe the part about it being transparent right? [ho ho ho]

Well, I have been the kind who do last minute shopping nowadays. I think that's because I don't really shop anymore so I do not have everything ready to go at home in case I need to do something or go somewhere at short notice.

There was this one time that I needed to attend some formal event and just a day before, I realize that I didn't have anything suitable to wear except for the old fashioned blouses and pants. That night, I bought a new pair of shirt with a black seamed skirt for a few hundred bucks.

I always thought that things are at ready but then I tend to change my mind at the last minute. I guess most of us girls are like that. Aren't we all? Suddenly the shoes doesn't suit or the color is too bright. At first we thought we want to look cute but the next thing you know, sexy is the way to go.

I love being a woman.

Pixie Lott

My latest addiction.

I can't quite describe the feeling when i'm obsessed over a particular song or tune. It's like falling in love all over again. Can you imagine that? Just like how i would want to see the person i'm in love 24/7, i would want to listen to the song every minute & every second whenever i can. Lina, my best friend+ex-roommate+ex-coursemate+ex-schoolmate+ex-basketballmate+ex-navymate can testify to that. I honestly think that she's secretly complaining and given the chance, she would have toss my pc's speaker out back then.

If you are wondering about the effects of such songs to me, try listening to these favorite artist of mine...and you know you have fall for it when there's a surge of warm feeling inside your heart. ;)

Love her.

The magical and enchanting voice...singing through beautiful words put together in a lyric...and the melody completes the whole tune and making it the perfect love potion for me.

Main influence.

I can still remember when Norah Jones first made her debut in the music industry. She sound so unique and different, i could not really decide whether to like her songs or not. Then i found one particular song of her that change my life forever. What Am I To You. From that moment on, i was officially her loyal fan for life.

My sweet song.

From the movie P/S I Love You, that's how Toby's voice caught my attention & lucky me, i discover another voice that can easily swept me off my feet.

Bitter sweet taste.

I was driving back from work one evening when Zee's single, Bitter Heart played on air and i actually waited till the song finished before i went out from my car. Needless to say, i straightly went looking for the songs on the net and it was a full whole week of same track lists on my winamp.

Through stormy weather.

Now that i'm posting this, i am once again reminded of the movie that kind of change my life and help me see life through a more positive and beautiful way. It made me want to explore myself and see the hidden or the obvious potential that lies beneath waiting to be discovered and realized. And i know i can always count on Lucy and The Women whenever i'm in need of daily motivation.

Always my favorite.

I'm not sure if Pink is in the right group but i just can't leave her out of this. Right from her first single to her latest album, let just simply say, i love it all. And it's an open secret that i fancy her voice very much, i wish i can sound exactly like her. She practically rock and spin my world turning it absolutely upside down and makes me so overwhelmed i can't find the right words to correctly decribe her awesomeness!

Thinking about how music really play a big influence on me, i really should do something about it. For now, let me see how i can turn that thought into action & anything, i hope i can post something about it in future. Shush...i can't really discuss about it. It'll jinx the whole idea.

Till then, be merry & be good. :)

Thank God It's Friday?

I woke up at 10am this morning then took a shower and sat down in front of the pc browsing through facebook. Made myself a cup of coffee and an instant maggie goreng for breakfast. I was halfway through My Start-Up Life pages when i got the call from the WAO or the WCC which stands for Women's Centre for Change in Penang about the email i sent them two days ago.

No. I'm not being abused or anything. Come to think of it. I am infact being abused. Emotionally.

It's just that i'm looking for other option beside the police report that i made against the physco guy that have been harrasing me emotionally all these years. It's a great relief actually. Ms Annie, the lady that took care of my case advice me to go and follow up the police report i made last year & to feedback to them the necessary actions that the police promise after that.

Talking to a woman in charge, is a nice change cause she understand how i feel when i told her that i'm worried that the police will not take me seriously & about the they-think-it's-funny remarks they said at me at the police station. Imagine being in a room full of policemen & i have to repeat the story over and over again every time a new police comes in and dreaded the words that may comes out from their mouth. Words like 'ala....lelaki ni mesti suka kat u punya.' 'ooo....cerita lama la ni.' And then go senyum2 looking at me. Damn it's taking all of my self control not to scream words back at them.

My second 'visit' to the police this afternoon did not really went well initially. The same look and remarks was being said and bla..bla...bla..sy malas mo go through that bikin sakit hati. Luckily one officer, maybe their chief at that station took over & talk things through with me. At least he offer some logic explanation of why they can not really do anything if there's no physical offense & at least he did some silent moment thinking hard of ways to tackle the problem & offer solution after solution that i can agree upon.

Bukan macam satu polis tu, 'ala..u dah kawin belum? haa...kalau u kawin mesti dia tak kacau dah lepas ni.' I was like, wtf.suruh org kawin pula cara dia mo suru selesai.wtf la btl2.

Now i only have to wait for just another 'hide and seek' with the weirdo & he can play 'police and thief' with the police.

On different story tho, i had my lunch in one of the shops nearby the housing area before making my way to the police station. I took white rice & the steamed ikan bawal and that cost me RM6. I don't know about you but i still feel that's expensive! Maybe i was getting so used to cooking at home & that home made steamed ikan bawal won't cost me that much so i was quite suprise that satu ekor ikan can cost me around RM5. Ridiculous. Reminds me of one article that made a sarcastic remarks on how fish seems to be the makanan orang kaya instead of chicken in a country such as ours. I actually called my mom about it and she laugh saying that in Sabah, that meal would have cost me around RM10. Now that would have me want to open my own rice+steamed ikan bawal shop & sell it for RM3 just like any other fish! Something as essential as food is not supposed to be expensive! Now go vote for me to be the menteri makanan.

Then i spent my remaining day cleaning up the house & putting up the curtain at the front door. Now you can't see me through the see through sliding door anymore. And the living room look much nicer. :) After that i tried my hands at menebas/mencabut rumput at the small lawn area but stopped when i realized that it will not look very nice if all the grass and weeds are gone. I wonder where are all the tukang rumput these days.

It's been a long day. 10.32pm now. Should i go to sleep? or go for a beer? or go out and about? Hmm...

Extracted Quotes

1. A sense of self means knowing what you have to offer & not offering it too quickly.

2. If a man is really interested in a woman, he doesn't mind waiting; in fact, often he prefers it.

3. When a man disappears suddenly, with no real explanation, it is because there is something wrong with him, not because there is something wrong with you.

4. The only time you should believe the man who says "i'll pull out" is when you're waiting for his parking space. [giggling]

5. Men respect women who retain their boundaries.

6. Men who have a compare-and-contrast attitude towards relationship are not just picky, they're narcissistic.

Age Of A Woman

Between the ages of 15 - 20 A woman is like Sabah.
She is half discovered, half wild.

Between the ages of 20 - 30 A woman is like Putrajaya, fully discovered and scientifically perfect.

Between the ages of 30 - 35 She is like Kelantan, very hot, wise and beautiful.

Between the ages of 35 - 40 A woman is like Johore.
She is half destroyed but still desirable.

Between the ages of 40 - 50 She is like Kuala Lumpur,
Old but still got hope.

Between the ages of 50 - 60 She is like Sarawak, very wide, very quiet but nobody goes there.

Between the ages of 60 - 70 A woman is like Malacca,
With glorious past but no future.

The People Declaration

...extracted from the declaration, here are bits of the points that caught my attention & interest;

In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful
We, Malaysians of all races and of various faiths, pledge to uphold at all times the foundational principles of the Malaysian Constitution, namely... A federal administrative system that fulfills its responsibilities, and protection and respect for the special position of Sabah and Sarawak

We will initiate measures to build and foster unity among the various ethnic and religious groups, having as our aim the evolution of a people with the common aspiration of justice and equality for all. To that end, we will... pay special attention to the Orang Asli in the Peninsula and all the indigenous groups in Sabah and Sarawak, and amend various laws and regulations pertaining to them so that justice is served, including establishing a Commission to protect Native Customary Rights (NCR) land and to resolve disputes relating to such lands while respecting their traditions and customs;

... strengthen national integration by restoring the rights and privileges that were promised to the people of Sabah and Sarawak Genuine democracy must provide meaningful space for the people to express their views and to participate in various processes of daily administration and not merely to voting once in five years. All interest groups must be allowed to present and debate their views. Information will be free available subject to strictly defined restrictions. To that end, we will

... repeal the Internal Security Act and and all laws that presently permit detention without trial. Reducing the people's burden:

... Reduce the fares of domestic flights between Peninsular Malaysia and Sabah and Sarawak to promote national unity and domestic tourism

... Develop the road system in Sabah and Sarawak... Give priority to projects which generate the greatest benefit to the people, projects such as medium and low-cost housing, modernization of the railway system, road projects in Sabah and Sarawak, and others

Education:... Improve standards and facilities for schools in the interior, especially in Sabah and Sarawak... Recognise the right to study the mother tongue like Chinese, Tamil, Iban, Kadazandusun and others in schools, and improve the implementation of policies on mother tongue education, so that it is more efficient and responsive to the demands of parents. Trained mother tongue language teachers must be supplied by government schools when at least ten students need such teachers, and the training of mother tongue teachers must be improved at teacher training colleges and public institutions of higher learning

Women:... Protect the rights and welfare of women who have been abandoned by their husbands without any reasonable support... Enforce strictly laws regarding the rights, interests and dignity of women and abolish laws and regulations that discriminate against women

and so forth....many other things covered but in my journey of supporting the rights of my beloved people in Sabah, listed above are my priorities to fight for..who else are going to care & worry about us other that we ourselves?

Harassment!!

For the first time in my life, i made a police report yesterday evening.
Why?
For attempted physical & emotional harassment by a guy who've been tailing me everyday from work to my house for the past three weeks.
Yeah. You read me right. Someone scary was following me.

This is actually a very long story & i never thought of posting about it because that bastard is not worth even a second of my time.

But about a month now, he had been waiting for me in some junction near the company so that i will not be aware of his presence & will follow me closely until i reached my home which was never. I will drive around the housing area or stop in front of shops to get rid of him. I even shouted at him before to stop following me & to leave me alone.

"Awak boleh tak jangan kacau sy lagi? Tak faham2 bahasa ke?"

And he will try to form words from his mouth which i barely listen to everytime because i will raised the car window up before he get time to put his hand inside the car & open the door.

You have no idea how much all this recent event had made me feel. Sometimes i can't help from crying when i'm so frustrated because i can't get away from him but i wanted to go home but i can not let him know exactly where my house is or else something worse may even happen.

I really don't feel like sharing this. I don't want to think for even a second about it.
It's really scary & i'm not yet ready to lose my sanity.


Girls, be aware of these things & never to wait until it's too late.