October Rain

....of movies.

Movie date anyone? It's Sandra Bullock & Bradley Cooper. You would not want to miss it. :)


Zooey is the girl Allison, from the movie Yes Man. Very cute. And Gordon-Levitt? Double cute. He got this Heath Ledger-ish kind of face and yes, very talented.


Again, Bradley Cooper. [drool~]
I have already watched this like months ago on a downloaded version from the internet. And i think i am going to go watch it again because damn~ this movie is so cool (at least to me) and so fucked-up i was literally open-mouthed in astonishment last time.


I don't have to say much really. It's Megan Fox and Amanda Seyfried. Of course i'll be there.


Apart from the book being an international bestseller so the story line is sure a good one, Eric Bana is in it and on something totally off the point, the heroine is named Clare. So i really should be there right? [you can puke now]

So that's October for me. How about you? ;)

16 Sept

Mom called last night.

"Esok kamu pun cuti ka?"
"Aah? Nda la."
"Ai. Bukan Hari Malaysia ka esok? Sabah saja cuti ka? Jadi tu Penang bukan Malaysia?"
"Ntah la mami, bukan Malaysia la kali sini ni. Buduh kan. Biar la."
"Hmmpph."

That was what our conversation was about. So i guess, nobody in Peninsular cares about the formation of Malaysia on 16 Sept. Pffftt. How about next year, on 16 Sept Sabah pull out of Malaysia and this particular day will still always be a public holiday but for more meaningful reason.

Sweet Dreams

Somebody gotta pinch me coz i ain't goin' to stop listening to this song. [wink wink]

What Not

There's a lot of common foundation in a relationship that we always have to look into so that we can be certain of a positive growth with our partner but right now i can only comes up with these two things. Just my two cents on Friday evening.


Acceptance & Forgiveness

It's not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry'. Not 'where are you', but 'I'm right here'. Not 'how could you', but 'i understand'. Not 'i wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are'.

In any relationship, you should always keep in mind to balance whatever things going on between you and your partner.

If your other half did something bad and genuinely says that he/she's sorry after that. Forgive him/her. Everyone make mistakes. At that time, it may be his/her wrong judgment, but be sure that you'll have your turn too in the future. Nobody's perfect. A fight or any mistake should be deal with mutual understanding on both party. It's funny how we can say that friendship or job's mistake can makes us stronger and good but when it comes to love, it's merely the other person's fault and that you were hurt.

There are times when even if you think that your partner maybe the sole cause of a fight or a mistake, be with him/her and bear the blame together. Help to ease the guilt they are feeling inside. In one way or another, i always believe that it's never a one person mistakes but it happens because both of you are allowing it to. Take your share on the problem. Pointing fingers should never be done and the last thing you want is to take revenge and in returns makes your partner feels just how much it hurt you or just how bad he/she was. Trust me, he/she will feel resentment towards you in future.


Sharing & Understanding

We decide to be in a relationship because we want someone other than ourselves. We were alone before that so basically we did all the things alone. We are capable of doing that.

So when it comes to an opinion, he/she should not be telling you that you have to get up on your ass and deal with everything on your own. To be in control or something more classic - to get hold of your own happiness. To be in a relationship is to share. To rely on each other shoulder if things get tough. If all you can tell your partner is go and be independent, then why in the hell did you agree to be with her/him in the relationship at the first place? I don't mean that you have to be totally dependent on your partner because that's a big no for me but at least when the problem is beyond him/her control physically or emotionally, you should be there. And when she/he actually comes up and meekly say that she/he doesn't know what to do, the last thing you should ever say is to ask back - what do we do now? If she/he knows that, she/he would not be asking you at the first place. If you don't know what to say, make up of something good to say..or just listen and hug him/her to let them know that everything will be alright. Even if it's not.

I'm not an expert but i was just sharing what i think are the right thing at least for me to do in every similar situation. Talk is cheap i know, but at least you try. Sometimes silence is even more damaging than saying it out loud. It's all a matter of a good timing.

As for my own relationship now... :) i'll keep that private but if you need to know, then i'll tell you this, i'm perfectly happy and that every difficulties are just a test of what we learn from each other and to see if we really understand it. It's just like learning things in school really. The relationship is the school. And those two person in it are both the teacher and the student taking turns... it's a give and take.


That's all i can think of right now... I'll jot in a more complete ending and substance when i have proper ideas in my head. So for now, that's it. [he he he]

Who Am I To Say

Now that it come to this, there's really nothing i can do.

I tried. But it's never enough.
So i won't say a thing anymore.

A new handbag? Absolutely!

29th August 2009

Boarded a flight to KL. Sitting in between an old man and a young lady. Both wearing a face mask. Searched a mask for myself inside the bag but then i realized that i never actually buy one. Arrive in KL, met Alex waiting at KL Central.

Looking around for a cheap-but-nice inn or motel around Bukit Bintang to stay in for the night. Plenty around but finally choose the Bintang Garden Hotel. Went to Mid Valley for lunch while waiting for Lina to arrive from Labuan.

Lina reached KL Central hours later. Took Lina out for lunch (had a second round lunch!) and the not-so-window shopping started after that. Saw so many items and yet so limited time makes me and Lina a wee bit anxious on tossing up between scarfs, smocked waist surplice dress and shorts. Sungei Wang Plaza to Low Yatt Plaza to BB Plaza to Lot 10 to Times Square.

Colin joined us on later. A 3rd round lunch for me and Alex. Whoa~! Took note that a belly bloated with food is not a very great idea of going hunting for items on sale. Colin and Alex keeps on mentioning the marriage topic over foods. Keep badgering me and Lina as to when we will be getting hitch. Makes me wonder who's the women around there. Me and Lina has long agreed with the idea on not rushing up marriage until we both ready/find our own Mr Really Right. We even contemplated on getting babies on our own without going down the isle. Why? 'cause we sometimes feel that people makes it so complicated just to get married. May as well opt for single decision.

Went on to Laundry Bar at The Curve later that night. Me and Lina had such great time checking on girls and a few men. Don't get me wrong. We simply appreciate great beauty and styles. [wink wink]


30th August 2009

Woke up around 10am and went for a quick not-so-window shopping again before checking out at 12pm and started the journey from Kl Central to LCCT and finally to Penang.

Reached Penang around 4pm and then went straight to Queensbay for another shopping before going to Kayu Nasi Kandar to have Lina first ever Penang nasi kandar after almost 2 years. KC and Lina met for the first time. She likes him and sort of gave me her blessings. [ha ha ha]

Went to Jewin, Wel and Joel's house after that to drink up the Chivas Lina bought from Labuan. Henry and Frankie were already there. The guys consider 1 Liter of Chivas as a nice warm up and we continue for bottles and bottles of beer at Kafe Dusun. It was a really nice session with us catching up and telling stories of our all time favourite childhood games (main biji getah, 'polisentep', kurutut and so on). We later found out that Jewin was the best tree climber among us all as a kid. Siapa paling banyak luka sama dahan paling tinggi dan paling kurus dia dapat naik adalah kriteria pemenang.

That's how we celebrate the countdown of merdeka for Malaya this year and all of us headed home around 4am in the morning.


31st August 2009

Jewin treated Lina and I to a delicious lunch at Victoria Station (Jewin sampai mengantuk-ngantuk mo kasi habis stik kerana suasana sungguh semintel dia cakap :D). The sizes of the steaks were enormous we took more than an hour to finish our meal.

After parting with good bye words to Jewin who's returning to Johor that night, we made our way to Prangin Mall for another round of shopping. Again, shopping with a stomach so full and stuffed was not really a good idea but for the love of skirts and dresses, we still manage to cover Ground Floor up till 3rd floor of the shopping complex. This time, Frankie was with us so while he's looking into a pair of new Levis's jeans, i took my time resting my legs.

Later on that night, we went to Batu Feringghi and bought a few stuff at the long and endless night market stalls. After half way of strolling along the row of stalls, we decided to call it a day. I suggested that Lina should have her much craved Lok Lok so we stopped by Gurney Drive and ate as much as we possibly can and after that go 'melepak' and chit chat for a while at the Gurney Drive. It was around 11.00pm when we decided to head back home respectively.


Needless to say, it's quite a tiring trip with painful foot and aching back not to mention being dehydrated but it was really worth it. :) I really had a good time! Tho, I didn't buy any new handbag as per post title~ [giggle]

I hope you had an awesome merdeka holiday as well. :)

Pixie Lott

My latest addiction.

I can't quite describe the feeling when i'm obsessed over a particular song or tune. It's like falling in love all over again. Can you imagine that? Just like how i would want to see the person i'm in love 24/7, i would want to listen to the song every minute & every second whenever i can. Lina, my best friend+ex-roommate+ex-coursemate+ex-schoolmate+ex-basketballmate+ex-navymate can testify to that. I honestly think that she's secretly complaining and given the chance, she would have toss my pc's speaker out back then.

If you are wondering about the effects of such songs to me, try listening to these favorite artist of mine...and you know you have fall for it when there's a surge of warm feeling inside your heart. ;)

Love her.

The magical and enchanting voice...singing through beautiful words put together in a lyric...and the melody completes the whole tune and making it the perfect love potion for me.

Main influence.

I can still remember when Norah Jones first made her debut in the music industry. She sound so unique and different, i could not really decide whether to like her songs or not. Then i found one particular song of her that change my life forever. What Am I To You. From that moment on, i was officially her loyal fan for life.

My sweet song.

From the movie P/S I Love You, that's how Toby's voice caught my attention & lucky me, i discover another voice that can easily swept me off my feet.

Bitter sweet taste.

I was driving back from work one evening when Zee's single, Bitter Heart played on air and i actually waited till the song finished before i went out from my car. Needless to say, i straightly went looking for the songs on the net and it was a full whole week of same track lists on my winamp.

Through stormy weather.

Now that i'm posting this, i am once again reminded of the movie that kind of change my life and help me see life through a more positive and beautiful way. It made me want to explore myself and see the hidden or the obvious potential that lies beneath waiting to be discovered and realized. And i know i can always count on Lucy and The Women whenever i'm in need of daily motivation.

Always my favorite.

I'm not sure if Pink is in the right group but i just can't leave her out of this. Right from her first single to her latest album, let just simply say, i love it all. And it's an open secret that i fancy her voice very much, i wish i can sound exactly like her. She practically rock and spin my world turning it absolutely upside down and makes me so overwhelmed i can't find the right words to correctly decribe her awesomeness!

Thinking about how music really play a big influence on me, i really should do something about it. For now, let me see how i can turn that thought into action & anything, i hope i can post something about it in future. Shush...i can't really discuss about it. It'll jinx the whole idea.

Till then, be merry & be good. :)

On this Day

"So... On this Day Out of Time:
Who can you forgive today?
And what would you like to be forgiven for?" - Jason Mraz on his FB notes

I want to...no..I am going to forgive my colleague sitting next to me for being such a pain in the ass this morning. And i would like to be forgiven for any bad feelings you may have towards me right now.

So we're cool right? :)

You...Me...Us

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If you ever feel alone in this world, then we are all together in that too.

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Thank God It's Friday?

I woke up at 10am this morning then took a shower and sat down in front of the pc browsing through facebook. Made myself a cup of coffee and an instant maggie goreng for breakfast. I was halfway through My Start-Up Life pages when i got the call from the WAO or the WCC which stands for Women's Centre for Change in Penang about the email i sent them two days ago.

No. I'm not being abused or anything. Come to think of it. I am infact being abused. Emotionally.

It's just that i'm looking for other option beside the police report that i made against the physco guy that have been harrasing me emotionally all these years. It's a great relief actually. Ms Annie, the lady that took care of my case advice me to go and follow up the police report i made last year & to feedback to them the necessary actions that the police promise after that.

Talking to a woman in charge, is a nice change cause she understand how i feel when i told her that i'm worried that the police will not take me seriously & about the they-think-it's-funny remarks they said at me at the police station. Imagine being in a room full of policemen & i have to repeat the story over and over again every time a new police comes in and dreaded the words that may comes out from their mouth. Words like 'ala....lelaki ni mesti suka kat u punya.' 'ooo....cerita lama la ni.' And then go senyum2 looking at me. Damn it's taking all of my self control not to scream words back at them.

My second 'visit' to the police this afternoon did not really went well initially. The same look and remarks was being said and bla..bla...bla..sy malas mo go through that bikin sakit hati. Luckily one officer, maybe their chief at that station took over & talk things through with me. At least he offer some logic explanation of why they can not really do anything if there's no physical offense & at least he did some silent moment thinking hard of ways to tackle the problem & offer solution after solution that i can agree upon.

Bukan macam satu polis tu, 'ala..u dah kawin belum? haa...kalau u kawin mesti dia tak kacau dah lepas ni.' I was like, wtf.suruh org kawin pula cara dia mo suru selesai.wtf la btl2.

Now i only have to wait for just another 'hide and seek' with the weirdo & he can play 'police and thief' with the police.

On different story tho, i had my lunch in one of the shops nearby the housing area before making my way to the police station. I took white rice & the steamed ikan bawal and that cost me RM6. I don't know about you but i still feel that's expensive! Maybe i was getting so used to cooking at home & that home made steamed ikan bawal won't cost me that much so i was quite suprise that satu ekor ikan can cost me around RM5. Ridiculous. Reminds me of one article that made a sarcastic remarks on how fish seems to be the makanan orang kaya instead of chicken in a country such as ours. I actually called my mom about it and she laugh saying that in Sabah, that meal would have cost me around RM10. Now that would have me want to open my own rice+steamed ikan bawal shop & sell it for RM3 just like any other fish! Something as essential as food is not supposed to be expensive! Now go vote for me to be the menteri makanan.

Then i spent my remaining day cleaning up the house & putting up the curtain at the front door. Now you can't see me through the see through sliding door anymore. And the living room look much nicer. :) After that i tried my hands at menebas/mencabut rumput at the small lawn area but stopped when i realized that it will not look very nice if all the grass and weeds are gone. I wonder where are all the tukang rumput these days.

It's been a long day. 10.32pm now. Should i go to sleep? or go for a beer? or go out and about? Hmm...